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Dispatches From Dystopia

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After Brunch

08 Wednesday May 2019

Posted by David in food, Sexuality, Uncategorized

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Discussing Some Sexuality Stuff.

I had brunch today. Alone. At home. I slept til almost noon. Then I read http://ddjennifer Domestic Discipline Jenny Style episodes 311 and 312. She always has an interesting read. Upon realizing I needed to eat, I fixed huevos rancheros, fresh coffee and a fruit salad. It would have been nicer, had J been here, but she is at work and will be til after 8:30.

I’m reading Olivia’s post about toothbrushes.http://oliviasubmits Is it just me? . It is highly interesting, particularly the comments.

I’ve done some stretches, feel better. I enjoyed my brunch. My immediate goal is to finish my coffee before it gets cold. This is not trivial. My finishing a cup of coffee while still hot is about being “in the moment”, without some jive-ass need to multitask.

So I’m posting this, getting my coffee, and watching The Loving BDSM podcast on YouTube. Later. Yeah multitasking again (insert emojis)🎅😀🐭

Vespers

02 Thursday May 2019

Posted by David in Russian Orthodoxy, Sexuality, Tolerance

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#Chastity, #Virtue

I am listening to Sergei Rachmaninoff’s Vespers (All-Night Vigil) on YouTube. It is, of course, serene, uplifting, beautiful.

All I can think is that the world has had all the secular materialism, moral relativism, and professions of nonbelief that it can take.

Chastity, for unmarried men and women, is a virtue to be practiced, not a sexual fetish, i.e, a perversion, to play at. There I’ve said it.

Had I children of school age, I would not send them to public schools. I fear that public education no longer schools children in leading virtuous lives. I think it has taken me fifty years, my entire adult life, to unlearn the misguided moral teachings of public education, or to grasp moral teaching, on my own, within the context of the Judaeo-Christian tradition.

I guess that is why I find Russian Orthodox Liturgy so compelling. The Communists sought to destroy religion. They failed, because the Voice of God cannot be silenced, The secularists are seeking the same objective in America today, under the fig leaves of tolerance and religious freedom. There are a surfeit of “useful idiots” in politics, law, and education who assist in this cultural holocaust. And I mean precisely that. Books are banned in school, e.g. The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn. That is close to burning a book. I think of the Heinrich Heine quote, “Where they burn books, they eventually burn people.”

We have become afraid to be intolerant of evil.

I Survived Physical Therapy.

17 Wednesday Apr 2019

Posted by David in Health Issues, Sexuality

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I have done physical therapy before. Chances are I will again. This session is pursuant to the pinched nerve in my neck. It wasn’t the greatest session I have ever experienced; I go back tomorrow morning Almost three hours post-session now, I think it’s better.

J wants to take me for $1 tacos tonight at one of our local restaurants, a family-owned place, that has a largely family clientele. But I want to pass.

What I would like to post about is some sort of erotic fantasy, but nothing is coming to mind.

Sometimes the sheer cussedness of the world just chokes off desire and imagination like a hungry anaconda. If your erotic fantasies are many, and your sexual realities are rich with intimacy, pleasure and Love, enjoy!

Absolute Service

25 Monday Mar 2019

Posted by David in Erotic Writing, Sexuality

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#Fem-dom

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NSFW. Sexually Explicit. May Be Disturbing. Erotic Fiction. A Work Of The Imagination

Desire is a funny thing, not funny as in comic or laughable, rather it is funny in the sense of being ironic or peculiar. But when I reflect about desire a little more I think about the ends to which I will go to scratch that itch. My pretenses of being a rational human vanish. When I consider Mistress, I am lost.

I prepare for my visit to her home. Shower, shave where I need to be hairless, the tricky part being my scrotum. I clean my asshole with a stream of water and liquid soap, working two fingers in to feel the stretch and know it is ready for her use, should she so desire.

When my body is clean, I make certain my clothes are clean, starched and ironed. My boots are shined, belt is shined, belt buckle gleaming.

I have the flowers she loves, a bouquet of roses, in yellow, red, pink, and white.

I knock on the door.

“It’s unlocked. Come in,” says a voice on the intercom by the door bell.

I enter. On the table in the foyer is a vase for the roses, with water. I place the roses in the vase as artfully as I can. Next I empty my pockets, keys, wallet, along with the collar I so carefully worked and polished the night before. It will be placed about my neck at Mistress’s discretion.

In the foyer closet are the hangers for my clothes. Even though I meticulously prepared my clothes and boots, they always go here. When I am naked, I turn off the light. I kneel on the cold and hard marble tiles of her foyer. And wait in the darkness.

The room was cold that night. My nipples hardened. My scrotum shrank. I was uncomfortable.

I hear Mistress coming. The darkness is complete, but for the light of her candle.

“Kneel up. Eyes forward”., as if I could see in the near complete darkness. A blindfold is placed over my eyes. Assured that I can see nothing, she then turns on the light.

“Present yourself.” I stand, hands at my sides. I can feel and hear her breathing. She takes out the skin fold calipers and begins to measure the bodyfat around my waist.

“Acceptable. Kneel for my collar.”

I kneel to accept the collar as it goes about my neck. Then a lead is fastened to the collar’s D-ring. I can smell the leather of the collar I worked on the night before.

“Follow.” I crawl behind her, the lead slack.

Crawling through the house, I feel the floor surfaces, tile, hardwood, an occasional carpet runner.

“Stop.” I hear Mistress open a door. I smell the essential oils in the fragrance diffuser. Ylang Ylang and lemon grass.

I notice that I am no longer crawling on a hardwood floor, but carpet. I cross the carpet. My hand collides with a heavy chair leg.

“Stop. On your back. Scoot under the chair. Pay proper homage to Your Queen.” It is a familiar command and always a welcome one. I know the Queening Chair, its open seat, the headrest and cradle where my head belongs. When I am in position, she raises the cradle adjusts it so that my mouth and tongue will align with her labia or clitoris, or her perineum and anus, depending on how she positions herself. Since I am blindfolded I have no idea of what the whims of her senses may be tonight.

Then the scent of her sex overwhelms me. I set to work, aware of my duty, eager to please. Broad flat tongue strokes on her labia. “Yes. More.” She shifts slightly. Her clit. I lick, I suck, I even dared to nip it with my teeth, before licking it again. I hear her growl of pleasure, the only sign I have fulfilled my duties.

“Scoot out. Good job.” She hands me a water bottle. I drink.

She fixes the lead again. “Time for your milking.” I was surprised and excited an the prospect of an orgasm.

I follow her to a bench that exposes buttocks and anus. The bench allows me to rest my upper body, while my penis juts out, available for whatever stroking she wishes to give it.

I feel the gloved finger, the lube, the stretching, the teasing in and out. The dildo pushes in next. My prick hardens more. I feel her hips against me. I am excited and strangely serene.

“Tonight I will collect.” It was a command I had been told about. Until tonight I had never heard it said.

She began the thrusting in my ass, along with the stroking of my dick. My pleasure was building. I was going to ejaculate. When the crisis came, she placed a lubricated tube, made to the thickness of my penis to collect the semen.

I was satisfied. I am always, slut that I am.

“I’m surprised by the yield. Let’s hope the sperm have good motility. I’m taking your blindfold off.”

The room was appropriately dim and my eyes adjusted easily.

“Come to the bed. You may walk.”

I went to the bed, climbed in beside her. We were, in that moment, almost like a regular couple. Vanilla. Almost equals.

“With any luck, your sperm will impregnate a woman in a lesbian marriage. Yes you will be a father, pay child support, medical bills, school tuition from pre-kindergarten through graduate school. But you will never meet your child or the mother.

“You have been chosen because of your good health, intelligence, financial success. You are a modern day god, a Zeus or Apollo.”

I was stunned. I was used. I felt empty. But such are the consequences of absolute service.

Journey

16 Saturday Feb 2019

Posted by David in Erotic Writing, Sexuality

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#Erotic_Fantasy

NSFW. Unapologetic Pornography. Adults Only Please

ONE

The train decellerated, entering the station, coming to a stop with a groaning of the brakes. The passengers disembarked, not like in the movies of the Thirties or Forties, but as modern, mundane travellers, tugging on the wheeled suitcases, or their backs bearing rucksacks, as if a cadre of Quasimodos had come to town.

Flor was the last passenger to climb off, carrying what was once known as a makeup case. She would have been mortified, had the latch failed, the contents exposed to the motley crowd of travellers, There was the makeup to be sure, but also a glass dildo, butt plug, a butterfly vibrator. and a “bullet”. Most embarrassing would have been the knickers she had been wearing only minutes ago, she removed in the unspeakable toilet.

“Miss Flor?” asked the uniformed chauffer, a muscular young man, with large hands and manicured nails. He took her case without asking. Flor obliged with no protest.

“Captain Lettow is waiting in the car. Please follow me.”

Flor was more than curious and no less fearful. Accepting invitations from strange men on dating sites seemed reckless, but a site for those with “peculiar” interests would seem to bring out the kamikaze in an otherwise sane woman. But she said to herself, “Why not?” as her partner dozed away, the CPAP machine working in the background. That was a week ago.

Instructions followed the next day in a Fed Ex envelope. It listed certain “expectations”, nothing so blatant as demands. In it was an American Express gift card for three thousand dollars. She was to buy a tailored suit, and high heels. She was pleased that a quality shop carried a suit that flattered her more than ample buttocks and that the heels, while high, did not have an absurd spike to them. She loved the expensive silk of the pants suit, a stunning black in the style of a tuxedo, but with a short tailored jacket and notched lapels. The white tuxedo shirt with the pleats and studs was a pleasure to wear, opaque, so leering eyes could not see that the silk camisole next to her skin aroused her. The Captain specified. “No bra.” She complied. Intensifying the feeling she was reliving an old movie was the hat she found at a vintage clothier. It was as if Ingrid Bergmann, Marlene Dietrich or Hedy Lamarr had loaned it to her.

The chauffeur escorted her to the limousine, parked defiantly in a taxi space.

“If you would put her case in the boot, Barrows, Madame Flor will not have need of it.”

Flor was surprised, but not surprised, as the man with the short cropped salt and pepper hair, and the authoritative voice, turned to her, greeting her through the open car window.

“It is truly my pleasure to finally meet you. I am Karl Lettow.” Barrows then opened the door, and Lettow climbed out. He took her extended hand and kissed it. Shaking hands was clearly too plebeian a gesture for this Continental gentleman. It was as if the past 104 years had never happened. And Flor had to tell herself, she had just left a train after a long trip from Savannah, not a long trip from Nice, arriving in Paris.

Lettow stated, ” I had a history professor who had a sign on his desk, “Live In The Past. It’s Cheaper.” It said. Good advice. That has something to do with why you were instructed to use the train. The ride allows one to collect their thoughts, see the world at ground level, and listen to the sounds of motion.”

“They certainly did that Karl, or do I call you Captain?”

“Captain.”

Truth be told, the chauffeured limo ride made her feel partly like an heiress of very old money and partly like a teenager on her way to the prom. But the Captain, The Captain, was the cultured and courteous retired Naval officer, his biography said he was. The decoration ribbon in his lapel was a Navy Cross, she learned from the internet. Could he really be 74? Everything about him reflected the story of his naval and diplomatic career, Navy special warfare officer, and a defence attaché at embassies in the more unsavory parts of a brutal world. In short, there would be things about this man she would never know. Nor want to know.

It wasn’t the classic mansion with the ivy-covered brick wall surrounding it, but it was dignified and imposing enough, she noted as the Rolls entered through the security gate, the guard, a grey haired man with a prosthetic hand, greeted them.

“I see it’s your shift tonight Chief. Good to see you,” the Captain greeted him.

“Cruz’s grandson has a football game tonight. I scheduled myself, so he wouldn’t have to ask for the night off.”

“Carry on, Chief.” It was as if the courtesy so ingrained in The Captain carried through to all around him.

There was a Ladies maid to greet Flor, take her case, and show her her room. She informed Flor that dinner would be at Nine, (“Spanish” hours) and would she like to bathe, enjoy some mineral water, perhaps allow her to fix her makeup. She could choose from several Dior evening dresses for dinner. She chose the green silk dress, with the enticing decolletage, After her bath, shower actually, Greta the maid, did do her makeup, brushed out her hair. Nonchalantly she offered to wax her pubic mound, as casually as if she were inquiring about a manicure.

Flor replied with equal naturalness, “Yes, please,”, as Greta led her to the massage table in the spacious dressing area. Greta was undoubtedly an expert in these skills. After another mineral water, Flor was ready, coiffed, dressed, about to offer herself to this gentleman, this affable and courtly rogue.

TWO

Dinner was as relaxed and effortless as if Flor and The Captain were old chums, not a pair looking for an “experience.”

The dinner, an elegant Dover sole, was delightful. The dessert of fruit and sorbet was a perfect complement to the heavy sauce of the entré. Florent noted the absence of any wines or liqueurs. The Captain would have his wits about him, she knew with certainty.

The Captain dismissed the staff. He looked deeply into Flor’s eyes and asked.

“Why are you here, Flor? You’re too old to play Cinderella, Liza Doolittle, or even Sally Bowles.”

“There’s something missing, Sir. Words fail me. It’s just that I can’t take another day of imagining, then denying. Imagining what it’s like to be paddled like a school girl, then used like a pirate’s whore, and flogged again.. I want my will and what few morals I have left to be dropped at the dungeon door.

The Captain assumed command. What else could his action be called? It was his nature to take. He took her by the hand, drew her to him and kissed her. Slowly, with building intensity, his kisses fired her. His hands caressed her back. She responded with intensity that heightened with every moment. She feverishly stripped the gown off, standing before him naked. His eyes looked down, she dropped to her knees, unbuttoned his trousers and took his penis in her mouth.

Was this a move in a game, a tried and choreographed pas de deux, or the burning inside her losing control?She sucked his prick, then deftly pulled his trousers down, digging her nails into his buttocks.

“By God, you are a whore, aren’t you? How long have you dreamed of being this Captain’s bitch?”

“Bitch” resounded in her ears as if it were the highest accolade she could receive. Turning him, her fingers spread his ass cheeks and she tongued his anus skillfully, her pleasure, her duty.

Finally, lifting her to her feet, he led her to the leather couch, draped her body over the back, presenting an open, slutty, and shameless view of her cunt and her asshole. She wondered how she would be used, but she didn’t care. Captain’s Choice? Wasn’t that the expression?

She stopped her wondering when she felt a gob of spit hit her asshole, then a lubed finger toyed with her butt, then two, skillfully thrusting, then pulling almost out. She felt so open, so ready, and then his cock entered her anus, just as his hand sharply swatted her buttocks. There was his thrusts, her grinding her ass into his thighs, his wet fingers diddling her clit, his grunting, her deep gutteral noises she had no idea were inside of her.

She felt his semen spurt into her guts. He collapsed over her, kissing her neck. After a silent interval, as his prick went flaccid, he left her there, walked out of the room. And she was alone.

How long?, she wondered, would she be here, on this couch, contemplating her buggering. She was, in this moment, the whore she dreamt of being.

Victory Or Fat No More

15 Friday Feb 2019

Posted by David in Health Issues, Sexuality

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#Goal_weight, #WW

I have had more than enough drama around my weight. In the past thirteen years I have brought my weight down from the 214-223 lbs range to the 170-180 lbs range three times. I attribute these fluctuations to 1) the idea that it’s no big deal being overweight and 2) taking great comfort in eating. From my perspective, all food is “comfort food”. Finally, in October 2018, I understood that such a cavalier attitude had the potential to destroy.

Back to Weight Watchers (WW) I went. When one reaches goal weight, their sizable resources on weight management and healthy living are available at no cost. NO. COST.

I am back being there for FREE.

What I do toward maintaining a healthy lifestyle is so satisfying, from swimming to eating healthfully and mindfully. Why would I ever want to change?

The positive attitude toward my body is a catalyst for positive attitudes around my sexuality. So, on this St Valentine’s Day, I am going back exploring in the ever mysterious Forest of Aphrodite. I will pack my lunch (healthy, of course) and my compass.

Later, Loves 💘

Azulão (For Jade)

10 Sunday Feb 2019

Posted by David in Erotic Writing, Gender Identity, Sexuality

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#menage a trois.

NSFW  Erotic Writing Adults Only Please
For Jade

I go to the pool a lot. I see the same faces, the same bodies, the same swimsuits. I know who will do what when I see the person exit their respective shower room door. At least I say that, so I can pronounce myself immune to surprises in all my jaded supercilious arrogance.

Until one day when even I was surprised. It was one of those afternoons when the middle school swim team, in all its youthful exuberance, were doing their sets and drills and flip turns, taking up five lanes in the seven lane pool. Sharing the pool comes with the membership. And sharing the pool often means sharing a lane. No biggie. Today, just as I entered the open lane, a women looks down from the deck, smiles and asks real friendly-like, “Mind if we share? I’ll take the right side.”

“No problem. I have to warn you, I’m old. I just do a long swim .”

“That’s fine,”, she answers, “I’m old too, not as old as you though, Gramps. And I will be doing some intervals.”

I liked the spunky “Gramps ” dig. As far as old is concerned, anybody who looks like they don’t remember Nixon isn’t old in my estimation. She isn’t old.

So we start. True to my word I am grinding the 2500 meter swim out. I check my watch at what I think is every 250 meters, just to see if my pace is consistent. True to her word, she is doing sets About the time I am in my last 500 meters, she does some kick drills with the kickboard. I finish up as she does.

“You’re like the Energizer bunny, You just keep going “

“Good analogy,” I say. “This is the time I have to myself. No phone. No interruptions”

“This is my escape too. It is required for me.”

Required? I think. This is unusual.

As she climbs out of the pool, I notice a tattoo on her left inner thigh, A bluebird. Quite lovely and in a most enigmatic place. However, this is the Twenty First Century. Women drive cars and even vote. I guess they can get inked anywhere they want. Walking back to the women’s locker room, she covers her ass with a towel. It’s a nice ass too, the kind you get when you are serious about swimming. Then takes off her white silicon swim cap, I expect her to shake her hair free, but no, her hair is damn near a buzz cut. With red-orange on top and blue on the sides, the same colors as in that bird tattooed on her thigh.
I shower off, wondering how long before my hair turns to straw again from pool chemicals. And I remind myself again to get one of those rubber hats like  Bluebird Woman wears.
I finish up, put real clothes on, head over to the coffee carafes, and fill my travel cup. Not the best coffee, but it’s free with the membership. I see her turn the corner,as I finish filling my cup.
“Fancy that. You drink this swill too.”
“I have very little pride and even less money. Truth be told, it’s my first time here today. But is it really that bad?”
“It’s about four notches higher than AA coffee.”
“Say no more. I know where of you speak. Sounds delicious to me.”
The witty repartee carried over from the pool.
“By the way, my name’s Bob.”
“How original, Bob. My name is Azulão, but folks call me Azu. My mother is Brazilian, Azulão is Portuguese for Bluebird. There was a song by that name she loves. But I was christened Maria Magdalena.
I know, you wanted to know my name, not my life story.”
“Not a bad story, Azu. I must admit”
Just then, our scintillating banter was interrupted when a powerful looking woman, also sporting a short haircut, absent the Technicolor enhancement, walks up to Azu, gives her a kiss on the cheek and says,
“I see you’re making friends already.”
She turns to me, extends her right hand, and introduces herself as Iris,  pronounced, “eh-REES.” Latino.
I shake it and notice, in the web between the thumb and index finger, a bluebird tattoo, same as Azu’s, only smaller.
“My name is Bob. Let me guess. That is short for Arco Iris, the rainbow.”
“We’ve been here a week and already I’ve met a clairvoyant.”
“Let’s just say, I figure stuff out quickly.”
Iris turns to Azu, tells her they have to go, mentioning a massage therapist with whom they have an appointment.
Off they go in an old VW beetle with the air-cooled rear engine.
Next week I run into them again, Azu in the pool, Iris later. Iris asks if there is a coffee place nearby, not a Starbucks. I tell them of the place, with home made pastries to die for, about two miles away.
“Please be my guests, this time,” I offer. They accept without any
phony “no we couldn’t possibly” hemming and hawing.
We settle in with Viennese coffees, heavy with schlag and slices of a Sächer Torte. As we sit,
Azu makes a gesture of obeisance to Iris, getting her a napkin, inspecting the cleanliness of her flatware, even asking for a cleaner fork.
“Very good. Thank you.”
I am happy it pleases you.”
They have a protocol. I notice.
We chatter on, getting acquainted, realizing we are something of kindred spirits.
The bottom line is they invite me to their place for dinner, to have something Brazilian, with lamb, from the South.
A few days later, I show up with mineral water and some tropical fruit, papaya and mangoes.
We sit and eat and talk. Azu is very attentive to Iris. I am getting euphoric from the good food, superb coffee, the beauty of the flowers which grace their home. It was an ambience of languid sensuality, from the lavender fragrance wafting from the oil diffuser to the Burmese cat who settled in my lap, intuitively knowing I would stroke her sable black fur.
“How long have you two been together?”
“Ten years,” answered Iris, “when I knew that I simply could not deliver another package for UPS, and the novel in my head would not write itself.”
Azu added, “i made enough from my photography free lancing to support us plus the money I saved from. covering the war in Colombia. You know, a war nobody cared about that lasted forever. Afghanistan with bigger snakes.”
She was more  blunt than a ball peen hammer. Her cynicism was showing, like mine when I got back from Lebanon.
I looked at Azu, then  Iris, the look shared among people whose hearts have held too much pain. And that maybe, just maybe, a night’s sleep after some hard fucking in the shared warmth of a big bed, might yet be the optimal therapy.
When you’re sober and you want to have a go with other sober sluts, you just put it out there. And if the women you’re hot for are queer with each other, well you just might be surprised.
I reached in to Azu, kissed her, then turned to Iris. She nodded. It’s OK, Cowboy, this isn’t our first rodeo.
I wasn’t interested in being God’s gift to Lesbians, just extruding the hard and dirty passion that had been inside me out through my tongue and fingers and, yeah, my dick.
I was amazed at how quickly and easily we found a rhythm. Iris and I made Azu the focus, then Azu and I shifted to Iris then those two to me. Simple kisses, caresses, stroking,probing, jacking up to a frenzy, , breathing heavy, a cry, a slap, a pinch, bellies sticking together, and a hand on my ass, Fingers up my butt, gloves, and dams and condoms, littering the bed like latex and vinyl leaves. If it was possible for me to do Azu while Iris did me, then surely Iris on Azu, while I slid my dick into Iris was possible too. We were busy fucking, not busy calculating the combinations. We were lovers, not mathematicians, after all.
Finally at dawn, when we woke up and I showered and dressed, Iris walked me to the door as I saw Azu on the bed, in all her lush nakedness, Iris said to me, “A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds. That’s Emerson, Cowboy.”
Then she kissed me good bye.

Curiosity, A Long And Sleepy Ramble

03 Thursday Jan 2019

Posted by David in Sexuality

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At my last Confession, I talked with my priest about pornography. He brought up the concept the Church uses of an “unhealthy” curiosity. So I looked at my curiosity and assessed whether it is, or was, unhealthy.

When I was planning my life around when I could view or read sexually explicit material, I can honestly say that such a curiosity was unhealthy. What has begun is a continuing process of letting go, of taking the mystique and appeal out of the sexually explicit. The door that opened for me in this process is to look for the person behind the image. I start with the eyes and the face. The nudity then becomes secondary. The allure then deepens.

It is a very disturbing thought that human beings can eroticize almost anything, that we can turn our desires, feelings, and our curiosity into a prison we can never leave. Our fetishes then define us. Hugh Hefner, in the Playboy heyday, managed to turn the female body into a fetish object at a truly bizarre and pathological level. He managed to force out beauty in his pursuit of beauty. We began to pursue relationships on the basis of such a superficial concept of attraction.

We must acknowledge our universal need for love, love that goes beyond sexual release. That our bodies are intrinsically good is a truth that takes a while to accept; from our bodies come life itself. By that I don’t mean that we all have to become parents. But that our physical being is what perpetuates humanity.

Desire

01 Tuesday Jan 2019

Posted by David in Erotic Writing, Sexuality

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Dreams

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I imagine her energetic, for a change, and curious as to how such a touch would feel. Or if the tales of excitement, arousal, play are real for everyone.

Maybe we could sleep nude. And my hands will wander, for sure. Can life and love begin anew? Hard again and thrusting.

Slowly, slowly. Awaken now. Tempus fugit.

Year End.

31 Monday Dec 2018

Posted by David in Relationships, Sexuality

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marriage

I am sitting here, comfortable, warm, indolent, desirous.

Do I risk everything in 2019 to make my marriage a marriage? You know, a relationship with physical intimacy. But here’s the kicker to that. The physical intimacy is the tip of the proverbial iceberg. In order for the door of sex to open, there are other doors in the passage that need to open first.

Here’s the crusher. My pretenses, my facade have to go away. Only I can release them. Yikes! So I am back to wrestling with that conundrum. But then again what have I got to lose?

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