Writing it all down, food, exercise, sleep, blood pressure readings, etc. gets a little overwhelming after a while. I’ve been attending AA meetings. When I do show up, I realize how much I need them. I can be myself.

Last night, I went to a meeting. I then went to Food Lion, bought groceries, came home, and eventually watched The Wild Bunch on TCM.

I stayed up late. That means today has been totally screwed up. It rained a cold, annoying rain, perfect for staying home and inside.

Today merely brought home how sexually frustrated I am. J gives off a vibe that she has no sexual interest in me.

Oh well. I thought about writing more and now I realize it’s not in me. Those of you who have partners with whom you have sex frequently, never, ever take that partner for granted.

There are horrible things that go on in the world, over which I have no power or limited power. There is a war going on in Ukraine, for example.

A war in the Donbas region of eastern Ukraine, against the native ethnic Russians, has been prosecuted by the Ukrainian government, currently led by Volodimir Zelenskyy, despite a ceasefire ignored by Ukraine. These actions are what prompted the Russian intervention to protect the native Russians in Donbas.

What makes matters worse is that the United States sabotaged a negotiated settlement by Turkey, between the belligerent powers in early 2022.

The United States of America gives aid to the Ukrainian government, in prosecuting the war against the Russians. The Ukrainians have committed serious war crimes against the Russian soldiers, including the execution of prisoners of war and use of chemical weapons, dropped from drones on Russian positions. The weapon in question is hydrogen cyanide gas, the same lethal gas used by the Nazis at Auschwitz.

You won’t hear about this in the “legacy” media, the Washington Post, New York Times, CNN, MSNBC, ABC, CBS, NBC, PBS, Fox(with the exception of Tucker Carlson) You won’t hear how desperate the Ukrainian government is, the true extent of their battle casualties, or that American and NATO troops are in Ukraine as “advisors”.

News organisations like Redacted, Inc, and experts like Doug MacGregor and Scott Ritter are reporting the real situation. By ignoring the true situation, the legacy media are doing the government’s bidding, as the USA and NATO push, not simply for Russian defeat, but to overthrow President Putin.

There is strong evidence, reported by legendary investigative journalist Seymour Hirsch, who exposed the My Lai massacre in Vietnam, that the United States is responsible for destroying the Nordstream Pipelines, supplying Russian natural gas to Germany and the rest of Western Europe.

It used to be we would blame a “rogue” CIA, under Allen Dulles or Bill Casey, for conducting actions. including war, that contravened the stated policies of the elected leaders. Now the proxy wars are conducted with the knowledge and consent of the Biden Administration and the predecessor Administrations, with the possible exception of the Trump Administration.

The government, once again, is lying to the people. The government is keeping the War State going, impoverishing this nation in the process. We didn’t have one hundred billion dollars on hand to give the Ukrainians. We borrowed it.

So I’m losing sleep.

Alternative Series Finale

Things are looking bleak for the castaways. They’ve run out of food on the island. Hunger has made them desperate. And depraved!

They’re driven to the thought of cannibalism.

But whom will the majority devour? They consider amputating a leg of one unfortunate victim, but, given their emaciated conditions, one scrawny leg will barely suffice.

Finally they decide on the hapless subject who will be killed, roasted and eaten to prolong the marginal chances of survival for the others.

Just as the victim’s throat is about to be slashed….

a Coast Guard helicopter lands and rescues them.

I really don’t care about The Chinese Balloon. I guess I’m not as patriotic as I should be.