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Passion and Catharsis

07 Friday Apr 2017

Posted by David in Catholic Life, Classical Music

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Andrea Chenier, The Passion

I have a confession to make.  I am an enormous sentimental slob. I love passionate  over-the-top operatic duets.  I just finished listening to Luciano Pavarotti and Maria Guleghina sing the finalé duet of Giordano’s masterpiece Andrea Chenier,  Vicino A Té .  I cried, emotionally overwhelmed.  I defy you not to cry.

Truth be told, we need this catharsis.  The characters in the story are sacrificing their lives for others in that orgy of violence, The Reign of Terror that ended The French Revolution.  Every time I turn on the TV,  a movie saturated with violence, a vulgar, comic-book violence, is  promoted. The news?  Brutality.  We have become inured to brutality.  We all have.

We Christians are approaching the critical event of our Faith, the Passion and Crucifixion of Our Lord.  I’ve heard the Passion Story countless times and I am still haunted by the sheer ruthlessness and brutality of  it.   It doesn’t fit well with the Gospel of Nice.  Human beings don’t come off particularly well.  Even Jesus’s friends abandon Him.  We prefer not to think of the evil we are capable of and we are quick to say “Not me. I’m not a party to this atrocity, this execution, this abortion, this genocide.”  And maybe not.  Until. Until we get to dispatch someone we truly loathe or we think “deserves what’s coming to him.”  Until we decide that that particular war, in Syria, or Yemen, or Nigeria, or Sudan, or Darfur, or Chechnya,  or Kurdistan, or Afghanistan isn’t our problem,  just as our grandparents or great-grandparents thought the wars in Manchuria or Ethiopia or Spain weren’t theirs.

We see the killing every damn day and we bottle the grief up.  The rage is fine. We get to be enraged and let that out, part of the unisex Machismo we all can claim, embrace, and revel in.

The tears I cry when Chenier and Maddalena face death, buttressed by their love, arise because I know that some things are greater than the offerings of this world.  And that even when Love appears to lose, it wins.

Noon

06 Thursday Apr 2017

Posted by David in Classical Music, Love and stuff, Sexuality

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Desire

IMG_20170406_101852_122NSFW. Adult Language

I woke up at some mysterious time in the dead of night, knowing only that it was too damn early to be up.  The cup of decaf I brewed was cold even in my fancy stainless steel mug .  Now I was hungry too.  Whole wheat toast with peanut butter and pear preserves sounded good.  Little did I know that that would be breakfast.  In a little while I felt sleepy again, back to bed I went.  I started the CD of Saint-Saëns Piano Concerto #1 Opus 17.  And I fell down the rabbit hole of sleep.

9:30.  I gotta pee!  and I’m up now, like it or not.  I take care of that need, get dressed. I want to get the paper. Opening the door, I see a squirrel on the porch rail. Cute in its squirrelness.  While Mrs CorC? gets ready for work, I lie in bed, watching her dress, appreciating her nudity as she hides it in her khakis trousers and striped knit top.

The longing gnaws at me again. My mind catalogs the passion I feel in acts, gestures, rituals of Sex. I’m tired of dressing up Sex in its Sunday Best of Married Love. The love is there all right, but it’s time to kiss the back of her neck, nibble her ear lobe,  fondle and stroke, probe and push and shatter the Good Girl Shield that protects the parched and withering flower of her Southern Baptist C-U-N-T. 

Yes, Precious, I will lick that cunt of yours, and put my finger in there.  I will  kiss the pucker of your anus, push my tongue in a bit.  Yes I am just that dirty and I want to get you dirty too. So when you get on your hands and knees with your Baptist butt on proud display, I will tease your pussy lips with my hard prick before I push it in, spread your ass cheeks, wet your butt hole with a gob of spit and push my  finger in to stuff you like a Christmas goose.

I want to hear you say the words you never say, because you’re afraid that God is keeping score and maybe He won’t forgive you. Because you’re not ashamed you said cock and cunt and asshole and clit and fuck . And let your own Husband do the nasty with you.  And, by Jesus, you even liked it!

Bach To Basics

06 Thursday Apr 2017

Posted by David in Classical Music, Love and stuff

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Bach

That is not a spelling error.  I am sitting in the Chair of Omniscience, wondering Where Oh Where has civility in public discourse gone, among other things.  Baseball seems incapable of lifting this sad sack of bones out of this funk.

In my desperation, I turn to the work of one of the world’s great geniuses, Johann Sebastian Bach. I am listening to the Sonata #1 in G Minor, BWV 1001. All of a sudden, despair lifts as the beauty of the melody fills the room.

In the great scheme of things, 300 years is not a long time, but it is longer than 30 years.  We (millions of  us) are still listening to Bach. How many of routinely listen to serious modern music, written, say in the last 30 years? This is not to say that it is bad music, but does it engage our souls and our spirits? This musical drought extends to Church music also.  The hymns of the Christian churches, both Catholic and Protestant, may be catchy and sing-able but do they touch our souls?

Bach was a devout Christian.  Even his secular works inspire a spiritual serenity in me. I can reaffirm that 1) Life is worth living,  2) we can all contribute in our own way to make this Earth a better place, and 3) if God can forgive me for being the egotistical bastard that I am, I can forgive the myriad of people who frost my butt on a daily basis.

Naked Victory

04 Tuesday Apr 2017

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I’m sitting at the computer naked. Quite frankly it’s a tad warm, 80 degrees F outside. I need to turn on the AC, I guess.  Or not.  I hit  a workout goal today: to exercise 50 times in 70 days for the sake of consistency.  Every negative thought I could think of ran through my brain.  “Nausea will make you want to stop swimming.  “You’ll get those calf cramps.”   “They will close the pool because of a thunderstorm.” .

But I persevered. I stopped after 100 meters, rested a bit, restarted the stopwatch, then swam another 2050 meters.  I took my shower, headed home.

OK the naked part. Here’s the simple answer.  It feels good.

Saturday Reveries

02 Sunday Apr 2017

Posted by David in Sexual Identity, Sport

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walking. sensuality.

Late today, close to dusk, I decided to walk. It was after 7:00 PM when I began. It was clear, with a breeze, and what I would call a perfect temperature, 60° F. The sun was beginning to set and it grew a little darker with each circuit of my neighborhood.

Our vocabulary, definitions, and concepts around sex are filled with irony and paradox. Every time I exercise, my libido awakens and I fantasize as I walk or swim. I’m not just a dominant male, but a dutiful submissive perhaps. As a cool breeze blows, my tactile sense awakens, and my skin is erotically charged. 

With the increased exertion of the walk, comes the eager anticipation of the hot shower, the scent of soaps, cologne. Peppermint, patchouli, sometimes sandalwood. 

The erotic is what we create. It is a bridge to the world, a link to our lovers.

Enjoy.

Botticelli. Barbeque. Brunch.

29 Wednesday Mar 2017

Posted by David in Amtrak, Art, food, grafitti

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BBQ, Botticelli, grafitti

It was one of those weekends that couples with no children dream about.  Just time together. At The Muscarelle Museum of The College of William And Mary, a travelling exhibition of works by Sandro Botticelli and his contemporaries was on display.*  Mrs CorC? and I drove down. The exhibition is not huge, filling only three rooms.  I was humbled by my ignorance and my arrogance, thinking I know  what classical Renaissance art is about; that I know what it is I see when I look at such a painting. Sure I can identify The Madonna or The Christ Child, but there is so much more. The contemporaries of Botticelli probably had an understanding and derived spiritual and aesthetic truths from such a painting  than I cannot see.

After touring the exhibition and, of course,  buying the poster, we decide to head back to town. We agree  barbeque is in order from our favorite purveyor of slow-cooked pig flesh, the Hogshead Cafe.   Part of the Southern folklore of barbeque is that a true barbeque joint is small, nondescript, and almost one step away from being closed by the Health Department. The Hogshead is as clean as the proverbial whistle, but it is small and not particularly flashy, decorwise. The barbeque tastes great.  We are partial to this dish called barbeque nachos, consisting of your basic nacho makings coupled with lots of barbeque.  Yummy and a prodigious amount of food.

Sunday comes. We both succumb to the “I don’t wanna get out of bed” syndrome.  Before we know it, a brunch opportunity has presented itself.  We decide the Henry Clay Inn on Railroad Avenue in Ashland, Virginia will satisfy our brunch-related hankerings.  The nickname for Ashland is The Center of The Universe.  I have no reason to believe that it is not  The Center of The Universe.  It is just that cool of a place.  Railroad Avenue is called Railroad Avenue because the railroad tracks of the main North-South rail line of the whole East Coast run down the center of the street.  It’s all part of the experience. We sit on the porch of the Inn and enjoy our brunch.  Two freight trains pass during our meal.  Both are southbound.  No Amtrak trains pass by.  A glance at the Smartphone app revealed major delays on all the North-South trains going through Richmond.

What always amazes me about freight trains is the graffiti painted on the box cars, just as I am astonished at the graffiti painted on abandoned buildings. Whether we like it or not, graffiti is the painting genre of our time, as representative of late Twentieth Century- Early Twenty First Century America as Botticelli’s works characterized Florence.  Graffiti has an energy to it, a declaration for humanity that a lot of modern art gracing museum walls lacks. So juxtaposed with the quaint bourgeois gentility of Ashland with its charming pastel-painted houses roll these magnificent graffiti murals.  That both represent America is indicative of our genuine diversity.

The cherry on the ice cream sundae that is Ashland is the town “Character”.   This particular chap rides a Fifties-vintage bicycle with fenders and balloon tires. He just cruises on his bike around town, passed the artsy cafes and coffee houses, circling Randolph Macon College, the town’s claim to fame. He wears outlandish outfits. Sunday’s outfit appeared to be inspired by the miniskirt. One might call him a “Flamer”.  But What the Hell, it’s Ashland.

*Note:  This exhibition will be in Boston at the Museum of Art from 15 April through 5 July. This is the only other stop on the American tour.  Those of you living in that neck of the woods should consider going.

Short Post

25 Saturday Mar 2017

Posted by David in Health Issues, Sport

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swimming

I am 66 years old. I swam 3250 meters today. That is 2 miles and then some. I feel bulletproof. Viagra? Who needs that?

Burning Daylight

20 Monday Mar 2017

Posted by David in Catholic Life

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Industriousness, Retirement, sleep

Even though I am retired, I still believe I have to be doing something “useful”. There was this block on the report card in elementary school that said “Uses Time Wisely”. I knew that one better be checked  or there would be adverse outcomes at home.  Last night, I was tired, fell asleep next to MrsCorC?, while Christopher Guest’s Best In Show was on.  I love that film, but I dozed off anyway.  At its conclusion, Mrs CorC? announced that Downton Abbey would resume in the DVD player. I was now awake, unable to resume my sleep. I got up to brush my teeth.  While brushing, I realized I had yet to pray  The Rosary today. I blew that off with an “Oh well”, then started my flossing.

After my dental hygiene ritual, I went to the other bedroom, put my jammies on and started Bach’s St Matthew Passion on the CD player. It was about 11:10 PM, at which point I said, “Just go pray The Rosary anyway. No way are you sleepy!”. Downstairs I went and began, contemplating the Fruits of each Glorious Mystery; The Resurrection-Faith, The Ascension-Hope, Descent of The Holy Spirit-Love of God, The Assumption-Grace of a Happy Death, The Coronation-Trust in Mary’s Intercession.  Praying The Rosary gets me out of my head and my self-absorption.  Prayer rekindles my love for humanity and my concern for God’s Creation.

So I’m finally tired enough to go to sleep. And sleep I do.  Next thing I know it is 9:20 AM. MrsCorC? is getting ready for work and I am left wondering what to do with the day. Will I Use My Time Wisely, even though Mrs Shanholtz, my First Grade teacher, is not around to report on me?

I’m writing this blog post, perhaps going to an AA meeting, then I’m going swimming.  There’s straightening to do in anticipation of the FIOS/Verizon guy coming on Wednesday. There is dinner to fix.

Busy. Busy. Busy.  Who keeps score, now that Mrs Shanholtz isn’t around?

Propaganda vs. Public Relations.

18 Saturday Mar 2017

Posted by David in Big Business, Health Issues

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Deception, Greed, Marijuana, Public Relations

It’s been one of those days when a magazine article I read last night continues to unsettle me. I can’t let it go.

I got my April 2017 copy of Men’s Fitness magazine yesterday. In it, along with the handy hints for “losing your gut”, is an article extolling the virtues of cannabis in various iterations. Somehow it is the wonder drug for athletic performance. OK. I suppose.  But tell that to the couch potato toking on the sofa and hitting the Domino’s number on his speed dial. I strongly suspect this article was produced by the public relations firm lobbying for cannabis legalization and planted in a compliant magazine.

Nearly a hundred years ago, the father of modern American public relations, Edward Bernays, had three women light up cigarettes on Park Ave one Sunday. Photographers were there to cover this manufactured event and photographs of these ladies lighting up appeared in print. Bernays was a nephew of Sigmund Freud and he used Freudian psychology in his work. In his Freudian imagination, he decided that a cigarette was a substitute for the penis and the ladies were envious. Since they didn’t have the “genuine article”, a cigarette was as good as ,uh, a pecker. I’m not making this up.

Well, for whatever reason, it worked. Women started smoking, and, ultimately, dying of smoking related illness.

Bernays was quite candid in his assertion that public relations and propaganda were synonymous.  We now associate the word propaganda with monsters like Goebbels. To us it is synonymous with falsehood. Public Relations has morphed into “spin”. We are now supposed to believe that marijuana is a benign substance, at the suggestion and urging of the marijuana legalization speculators, advocates, and entrepreneurs.

Nevermind that marijuana can be and is, abused by its users every day.  Somebody wants to make big bucks off the misery.

Sometimes I Need To Just Express Myself

17 Friday Mar 2017

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True Confessions

Mistress Keyboard is demanding her due as I sit before her.  All she wants is for me to pour out my very soul to her.

1). I was completely unprepared to work in the world of business-to-business sales for as long as I did. All through it I felt the way I did when I walked into a fraternity rush event at a house that was interested only in  old family money and a Social Register pedigree. Out. Of. Place.  I only worked in that environment for thirty-five years. Go figure.

2). Sex without Love is totally inauthentic to me. On the other hand, my sexual desire can  delude me into thinking that I am in love with a woman, so I can have guilt-free sex.  What happens, of course, is that I create havoc in the lives of others and myself. Then  I ultimately fall in love with a lady whose libido is a casualty of menopause. Can you say irony? Still being in love  beats the alternative any day of the week.

3). A sexual imagination (aka Dirty Mind) is a marvelous resource.  It turns the mundane into the exotic in the firing  of a neuron.  Loading the dishwasher can become an exquisite ordeal.

“Have I pleased you, Mistress?”

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