• #10528 (no title)
  • 15 September 2020
  • Gourmet, Down South
  • The Author
  • Walking
  • What Endures. What Passes.

Dispatches From Dystopia

~ "What man by worrying can add one cubit to his span of years?"

Dispatches From Dystopia

Monthly Archives: February 2019

Rest Day

15 Friday Feb 2019

Posted by David in Uncategorized

≈ Leave a comment

Sort of. I did not go swimming. Six out of seven days, five days in a row are good numbers. So I’m stayin’ dry today. But I did decide more tidying up was indicated. My dining table is now empty of all newspapers, direct mail, and paper bags. The chairs do not have tote bags, packs, or recyclable plastic bags hanging on their backs. The counters are clean. The sinks are clean and polished with stainless steel polish.

St Valentine’s Day was well-received by my two special ladies, my wife and step mom. I gave them both a vase with tulip bulbs which should bloom in a couple of weeks. Plus cards. And my wife got a cornball old-fashioned Valentine heart-shaped box of chocolates, because she is as sentimental as I am.

St Valentine’s Day is about love, in all its ways of being expressed.

People matter.

Victory Or Fat No More

15 Friday Feb 2019

Posted by David in Health Issues, Sexuality

≈ Leave a comment

Tags

#Goal_weight, #WW

I have had more than enough drama around my weight. In the past thirteen years I have brought my weight down from the 214-223 lbs range to the 170-180 lbs range three times. I attribute these fluctuations to 1) the idea that it’s no big deal being overweight and 2) taking great comfort in eating. From my perspective, all food is “comfort food”. Finally, in October 2018, I understood that such a cavalier attitude had the potential to destroy.

Back to Weight Watchers (WW) I went. When one reaches goal weight, their sizable resources on weight management and healthy living are available at no cost. NO. COST.

I am back being there for FREE.

What I do toward maintaining a healthy lifestyle is so satisfying, from swimming to eating healthfully and mindfully. Why would I ever want to change?

The positive attitude toward my body is a catalyst for positive attitudes around my sexuality. So, on this St Valentine’s Day, I am going back exploring in the ever mysterious Forest of Aphrodite. I will pack my lunch (healthy, of course) and my compass.

Later, Loves 💘

Mittwoch

14 Thursday Feb 2019

Posted by David in Uncategorized

≈ Leave a comment

Wednesday, that is. I’m sitting here, feeling very satisfied that I remembered my wife and stepmother for St. Valentine’s Day.

I put actual thought into the purchases and the cards I selected.

In the world of swimming, I swam. 2500 meters, giving 13,000 meters for the period 9 -14 February. I set an ambitious goal of swimming 100 miles by Easter, I may have it done by April 1. Just recovering from sedentary living was a real epiphany. Inactivity is so dangerous for seniors. Truth is, the only times I think of myself as a senior citizen are when the Social Security benefit gets in my bank account and I receive a benefit statement from Medicare.

There are clean, actually new, sheets on the bed. I put a pork shoulder, (half of one) in the slow cooker, with some barbecue sauce, I made a packaged side dish, Zatarain’s Black Beans and Rice. Surprisingly good for a boxed something. That and some cole slaw. Dinner under $12.

I feel like I am about to spin off into one of my Pleasure Of Domestic Arts Rants. I will just leave it at “Doing the housework is satisfying.” Let that suffice for now.

I have an idea for a story. Somewhat kinky, but I just want to use kink metaphorically in exploring loyalty, service, and passionate intensity.

Stay tuned.

Later. Loves 💘

Tuesday

13 Wednesday Feb 2019

Posted by David in Uncategorized

≈ Leave a comment

It was a day of sleeping late, or sleeping in blocks of time 4 hours,up a while then 3 more hours.

Had lunch out. Simple stuff, salad, bowl of chili. I picked up another prescription at the same pharmacy as yesterday.

I visited my AA buddy who is recovering from a stroke. He is home, making progress. He is young, only 45.

I came home, went through some recyclables, tben went swimming about 7:30. I did a 3300 meter swim (2+miles).

When I got home I learned my wife is eligible for her company’s health insurance plan, even though she is only part time. That is a big problem solved til she is Medicare eligible in November.

Tired now. Bedtime.

Night Loves 💘

The Day

12 Tuesday Feb 2019

Posted by David in Uncategorized

≈ Leave a comment

I did go to AA, then the Y, Swam 2100 meters, put petrol in the motorcar ($1.959/gal @ BJ’s,btw). I drove over to the Dr’s office. He is on the faculty at the local medical school. They relocated from a grungy downtown facility that looked like they stole a blueprint from a Soviet bloc prison to a nice new modern facility, in a nice area with open spaces and trees. And guess what? Parking that was a hassle downtown is a hassle here. Go figure.

Driving home, I picked up a prescription, ate some dinner and a lot of fruit. (Thank you, Weight Watchers).

I watched Wehrmacht (WW2 German Army. Hitler, et al) training films. Still creepy after all these years. I talked w with my elder son, (see earlier post). I also did a load of laundry. I’m trying to conserve water. I’m ready for bed.

Good night Loves 💘

Ongoing Collective Nightmare

12 Tuesday Feb 2019

Posted by David in Addiction, recovery

≈ 3 Comments

Tags

#Heroin

I was talking with my elder son tonight. Just chatting, getting caught up. He said he talked with his ex-wife a few weeks ago for the first time since their divorce nearly fifteen years ago. She had remarried, was the mother of two children 10 and 8, and taught high school math. All pretty routine. Then she told my son that her husband died of a heroin overdose about a year or so ago. Heroin overdose. It isn’t unusual anymore. How horrible and two orphaned children.

It isn’t just opioids, synthetics, but heroin, an opium derivative. Do you think heroin just might be smuggled across the Southern border? Are we doing enough to deal with the ongoing drug nightmare?From the perspective of those two fatherless children, I would say we are not.

Sitting Here

11 Monday Feb 2019

Posted by David in Uncategorized

≈ Leave a comment

I’m sitting here, thinking of all the stuff I should be doing. I have a Doctor’s appointment at Three PM. It should be brief. I will swim after the appointment. Or not. I could swim between the AA meeting at noon and the appointment. Very doable. Perhaps I could leave the meeting early.

I want to spend more time studying and writing. That was the big discovery for my retirement purpose this weekend.

More later

Watch “Azulão (Bluebird)- Jayme Ovalle” on YouTube

10 Sunday Feb 2019

Posted by David in Uncategorized

≈ 4 Comments

This is the enchanting art song I featured in the last post.

Azulão (For Jade)

10 Sunday Feb 2019

Posted by David in Erotic Writing, Gender Identity, Sexuality

≈ 11 Comments

Tags

#menage a trois.

NSFW  Erotic Writing Adults Only Please
For Jade

I go to the pool a lot. I see the same faces, the same bodies, the same swimsuits. I know who will do what when I see the person exit their respective shower room door. At least I say that, so I can pronounce myself immune to surprises in all my jaded supercilious arrogance.

Until one day when even I was surprised. It was one of those afternoons when the middle school swim team, in all its youthful exuberance, were doing their sets and drills and flip turns, taking up five lanes in the seven lane pool. Sharing the pool comes with the membership. And sharing the pool often means sharing a lane. No biggie. Today, just as I entered the open lane, a women looks down from the deck, smiles and asks real friendly-like, “Mind if we share? I’ll take the right side.”

“No problem. I have to warn you, I’m old. I just do a long swim .”

“That’s fine,”, she answers, “I’m old too, not as old as you though, Gramps. And I will be doing some intervals.”

I liked the spunky “Gramps ” dig. As far as old is concerned, anybody who looks like they don’t remember Nixon isn’t old in my estimation. She isn’t old.

So we start. True to my word I am grinding the 2500 meter swim out. I check my watch at what I think is every 250 meters, just to see if my pace is consistent. True to her word, she is doing sets About the time I am in my last 500 meters, she does some kick drills with the kickboard. I finish up as she does.

“You’re like the Energizer bunny, You just keep going “

“Good analogy,” I say. “This is the time I have to myself. No phone. No interruptions”

“This is my escape too. It is required for me.”

Required? I think. This is unusual.

As she climbs out of the pool, I notice a tattoo on her left inner thigh, A bluebird. Quite lovely and in a most enigmatic place. However, this is the Twenty First Century. Women drive cars and even vote. I guess they can get inked anywhere they want. Walking back to the women’s locker room, she covers her ass with a towel. It’s a nice ass too, the kind you get when you are serious about swimming. Then takes off her white silicon swim cap, I expect her to shake her hair free, but no, her hair is damn near a buzz cut. With red-orange on top and blue on the sides, the same colors as in that bird tattooed on her thigh.
I shower off, wondering how long before my hair turns to straw again from pool chemicals. And I remind myself again to get one of those rubber hats like  Bluebird Woman wears.
I finish up, put real clothes on, head over to the coffee carafes, and fill my travel cup. Not the best coffee, but it’s free with the membership. I see her turn the corner,as I finish filling my cup.
“Fancy that. You drink this swill too.”
“I have very little pride and even less money. Truth be told, it’s my first time here today. But is it really that bad?”
“It’s about four notches higher than AA coffee.”
“Say no more. I know where of you speak. Sounds delicious to me.”
The witty repartee carried over from the pool.
“By the way, my name’s Bob.”
“How original, Bob. My name is Azulão, but folks call me Azu. My mother is Brazilian, Azulão is Portuguese for Bluebird. There was a song by that name she loves. But I was christened Maria Magdalena.
I know, you wanted to know my name, not my life story.”
“Not a bad story, Azu. I must admit”
Just then, our scintillating banter was interrupted when a powerful looking woman, also sporting a short haircut, absent the Technicolor enhancement, walks up to Azu, gives her a kiss on the cheek and says,
“I see you’re making friends already.”
She turns to me, extends her right hand, and introduces herself as Iris,  pronounced, “eh-REES.” Latino.
I shake it and notice, in the web between the thumb and index finger, a bluebird tattoo, same as Azu’s, only smaller.
“My name is Bob. Let me guess. That is short for Arco Iris, the rainbow.”
“We’ve been here a week and already I’ve met a clairvoyant.”
“Let’s just say, I figure stuff out quickly.”
Iris turns to Azu, tells her they have to go, mentioning a massage therapist with whom they have an appointment.
Off they go in an old VW beetle with the air-cooled rear engine.
Next week I run into them again, Azu in the pool, Iris later. Iris asks if there is a coffee place nearby, not a Starbucks. I tell them of the place, with home made pastries to die for, about two miles away.
“Please be my guests, this time,” I offer. They accept without any
phony “no we couldn’t possibly” hemming and hawing.
We settle in with Viennese coffees, heavy with schlag and slices of a Sächer Torte. As we sit,
Azu makes a gesture of obeisance to Iris, getting her a napkin, inspecting the cleanliness of her flatware, even asking for a cleaner fork.
“Very good. Thank you.”
I am happy it pleases you.”
They have a protocol. I notice.
We chatter on, getting acquainted, realizing we are something of kindred spirits.
The bottom line is they invite me to their place for dinner, to have something Brazilian, with lamb, from the South.
A few days later, I show up with mineral water and some tropical fruit, papaya and mangoes.
We sit and eat and talk. Azu is very attentive to Iris. I am getting euphoric from the good food, superb coffee, the beauty of the flowers which grace their home. It was an ambience of languid sensuality, from the lavender fragrance wafting from the oil diffuser to the Burmese cat who settled in my lap, intuitively knowing I would stroke her sable black fur.
“How long have you two been together?”
“Ten years,” answered Iris, “when I knew that I simply could not deliver another package for UPS, and the novel in my head would not write itself.”
Azu added, “i made enough from my photography free lancing to support us plus the money I saved from. covering the war in Colombia. You know, a war nobody cared about that lasted forever. Afghanistan with bigger snakes.”
She was more  blunt than a ball peen hammer. Her cynicism was showing, like mine when I got back from Lebanon.
I looked at Azu, then  Iris, the look shared among people whose hearts have held too much pain. And that maybe, just maybe, a night’s sleep after some hard fucking in the shared warmth of a big bed, might yet be the optimal therapy.
When you’re sober and you want to have a go with other sober sluts, you just put it out there. And if the women you’re hot for are queer with each other, well you just might be surprised.
I reached in to Azu, kissed her, then turned to Iris. She nodded. It’s OK, Cowboy, this isn’t our first rodeo.
I wasn’t interested in being God’s gift to Lesbians, just extruding the hard and dirty passion that had been inside me out through my tongue and fingers and, yeah, my dick.
I was amazed at how quickly and easily we found a rhythm. Iris and I made Azu the focus, then Azu and I shifted to Iris then those two to me. Simple kisses, caresses, stroking,probing, jacking up to a frenzy, , breathing heavy, a cry, a slap, a pinch, bellies sticking together, and a hand on my ass, Fingers up my butt, gloves, and dams and condoms, littering the bed like latex and vinyl leaves. If it was possible for me to do Azu while Iris did me, then surely Iris on Azu, while I slid my dick into Iris was possible too. We were busy fucking, not busy calculating the combinations. We were lovers, not mathematicians, after all.
Finally at dawn, when we woke up and I showered and dressed, Iris walked me to the door as I saw Azu on the bed, in all her lush nakedness, Iris said to me, “A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds. That’s Emerson, Cowboy.”
Then she kissed me good bye.

Workout

09 Saturday Feb 2019

Posted by David in Uncategorized

≈ Leave a comment

I skipped swimming yesterday, having put four hours into housecleaning. Today. I started my swim. After completing 2500 meters, I decided I would swim 2 miles. I like the longer swims when I decide one is in order.

The middle school swim team doesn’t practice on Friday afternoon. I got to use my favorite lane, one with a ladder for easy entry. I look awkward climbing in when I don’t use the ladder.

When I finished, I showered, changed, and went home. I’m sitting here now, just relaxing, enjoying the feeling of warm feet.

Nothing really important to write about. Thinking of a story for Jade.

Later Loves. 💘

← Older posts
Newer posts →

Subscribe

  • Entries (RSS)
  • Comments (RSS)

Archives

  • January 2023
  • December 2022
  • November 2022
  • October 2022
  • September 2022
  • August 2022
  • July 2022
  • June 2022
  • May 2022
  • April 2022
  • March 2022
  • February 2022
  • January 2022
  • December 2021
  • November 2021
  • October 2021
  • September 2021
  • August 2021
  • July 2021
  • June 2021
  • May 2021
  • April 2021
  • March 2021
  • February 2021
  • January 2021
  • December 2020
  • November 2020
  • October 2020
  • September 2020
  • August 2020
  • July 2020
  • June 2020
  • May 2020
  • April 2020
  • March 2020
  • February 2020
  • January 2020
  • December 2019
  • November 2019
  • October 2019
  • September 2019
  • August 2019
  • July 2019
  • June 2019
  • May 2019
  • April 2019
  • March 2019
  • February 2019
  • January 2019
  • December 2018
  • November 2018
  • October 2018
  • September 2018
  • July 2018
  • June 2018
  • May 2018
  • April 2018
  • February 2018
  • January 2018
  • December 2017
  • November 2017
  • October 2017
  • September 2017
  • August 2017
  • July 2017
  • June 2017
  • May 2017
  • April 2017
  • March 2017
  • February 2017
  • January 2017
  • December 2016
  • November 2016
  • October 2016
  • September 2016
  • August 2016
  • July 2016
  • June 2016
  • May 2016
  • April 2016
  • March 2016
  • February 2016
  • January 2016
  • November 2015
  • September 2015
  • October 2014
  • September 2014
  • June 2014
  • May 2014
  • March 2014

Categories

  • #cricket
    • Cricket
  • #Grief
  • Addiction
  • Adult Children
  • Aesthetics
  • Age Play
  • alcoholism
  • American History
    • Politics
  • Amtrak
  • Animal Baby Cuteness
  • Anti-Marxist Activity
  • Art
  • Autism Spectrum Disorders
  • Automobiles,
  • Baby Names
  • Baltimore
  • Big Business
  • Birthday
  • Bloggers
  • British Empire
  • Capitalism
  • Cartoons
  • Catholic Life
  • Cats
  • Civilization
  • Class
  • Classical Music
  • cooking
  • Cricket
  • Cuba
  • Cycling
  • Delta Blues
  • Depression
  • Dogs
  • Erotic Writing
  • Exercise/ Fitness
  • Existential Despair
  • Fame
  • Family
  • Fantasy
  • Fashion & Grooming
  • Florida
  • Flowers
  • food
  • Foreign Films
  • Fruit
  • Futurism
  • Gay/Straight Dichotomy
  • Gender Identity
  • Gender Roles
  • Gentrification
  • Going Dark.
  • grafitti
  • Gratitude
  • Health Issues
  • Hedonism
  • Hidtory
  • History
  • Housework
  • kitsch
  • Literature
  • loneliness
  • Love and stuff
  • memoir
  • Mid Century Modern
  • Modernism
  • New York
  • Old Cameras
  • Otakon 2016
  • personal grooming
  • Pie Crust
  • Politics
  • Popular Song
  • Post Office
  • Railroads
  • recovery
  • Refugees
  • Relationships
  • Russian Orthodoxy
  • Sacrifice
  • sadomasochism
  • seduction
  • self-indulgence
  • Sexual Identity
  • Sexuality
  • sleep
  • Smartphones
  • Sobriety
  • Soup
  • Soviet History
  • Spirituality
  • Sport
  • Suburbia
  • Summer
  • Taste
  • Tasteless Gifts
  • Tattoo
  • Tea
  • The Villages
  • Tolerance
  • Travel
  • Uncategorized
  • Urban Brutalism
  • Vietnam
  • Wildlife
  • World War II
  • YMCA
  • YouTube-Videos

Meta

  • Register
  • Log in

Blog at WordPress.com.

  • Follow Following
    • Dispatches From Dystopia
    • Join 573 other followers
    • Already have a WordPress.com account? Log in now.
    • Dispatches From Dystopia
    • Customize
    • Follow Following
    • Sign up
    • Log in
    • Report this content
    • View site in Reader
    • Manage subscriptions
    • Collapse this bar