Journey Part IV

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NSFW. Erotic Fiction. May Include Spanking & Other Kinky Stuff.

Six

Flor blew her nose on the proffered tissue. The Captain applied the arnica gel on her bruised buttocks. He acted as if rebellion and resistance were all part of these explorations. And acceptance of the behavior came with the territory. At heart, he wasn’t interested in the pushback. It was far more important to Flor than it was to him.

The kink dragons unleashed by the spankings weren’t all rapacious monsters. They were also playful little buggers. So when he finished with her aftercare, he told Flor,

“Looks like Greta is at the gym now, Beryl will take you back to the house.”

Great,” she thought. “More players in on the game.”

The Captain opened the door, called her name and the Symphony In Flannel that was the gardener, that leering gardener, came inside.

“Flor needs some body work. Can you help out in Greta’s absence?”

“Sure. It would be my pleasure.”

The word sounded simultaneously innocuous and creepy.

Seven.

The walk back to the house was absent of tension or menace. It was down right relaxing.

“Let’s stop in the kitchen and get some cold bottled water.”

Beryl told Flor she was the trainer for her college softball team after her playing career ended and that she knew how to work with bodies strained by exertion and tension. Instead of the bedroom, Beryl took Flor to what was a training room, with the type of stainless steel whirlpool bath found in training rooms and body work tables. Through the glass partition, she could see the weight room where Greta and the chauffeur Barrows were working out.

“Let’s get you in the whirlpool for a while before I work on you.”

Matter of factly, she helped Flor into the tub and started the jets working.

“I’ll set the timer and be back in a short.”

When she returned, Beryl wore just her tee-shirt and spandex bike shorts. Flor immediately appreciated the muscled body, one of those female gym rat bodies that looked unattainable to pedestrian wretches like her.

Beryl helped her out of the bath, wrapped her in a large towel, took her to a massage table. There was a face cradle for Flor to place her head. Flor welcomed the relaxation and Beryl’s expert work.

As the tension vanished from her back, Beryl commanded, “Turn over” Flor turned over, her breasts, belly, her bare mound and vulva opened to Beryl’s view. She wondered if Beryl would want more, would take her as if she were another conquest, a stripe on her Butch sleeve. The suspense excited her.

Beryl worked on her thigh muscles, avoiding Flor’s lady bits, at least for the time being, then she moved to Flor’s pectorals and the massage caused Flor’s nipples to harden.

Crap, she knows I’m liking this.”

Silently Beryl pulled on nitrile gloves, then took out a bottle of lube. Flor wanted to look, but she surrendered to the feeling, not caring really what Beryl would do. Then when her hand entered Flor, she sighed a slow and heartfelt Yes.

No one had touched her, claimed her, caressed her, used her, captured her like this. Intuitively Beryl’s tempo was exactly what Flor wanted. The tension came to a crescendo and Beryl’s gloved hand brought about the squirting Flor read about in Cosmopolitan and what other women whispered about, but didn’t think would happen to her. O-R-G-A-S-M. In Technicolor.

More release. At the hands of a stranger. And a little more of what she held inside came out.

A Long Ramble That May Have A Point.

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Today, I went to my medieval philosophy discussion group. (Yawns erupt among readers.)

So what’s that about? We discuss questions of aesthetics and virtue. At the heart is the debate of whether reason springs from faith or if faith derives from what reason reveals. (another collective yawn.) I guess you had to have been there. Not to worry, the medieval thinkers themselves were engaged in similar questions.

I am increasingly engaged with why and how the underpinnings of our culture today came to be. Do we understand how Marx, Darwin, Nietzsche, and Freud influence our world today?

One example, seemingly tangential, but actually central to our understanding of the current modernist, consumer-driven world is the work of Edward Bernays. He was the nephew of Sigmund Freud and he put Freud’s ideas of subconscious motives into his own field of public relations, and from public relations to advertising.

One afternoon in 1923, he had three women light up cigarettes on Park Avenue, New York City, and smoke. It was publicized, as it was intended to be. Women smoking openly, back then when women didn’t, was a statement of equality between the sexes. After that little staged event, more and more women smoked. Critical to understanding public relations, as demonstrated by what we now view as this egregious stunt by Bernays, is that public relations and propaganda were considered to be synonymous. Bernays wanted to direct how you think and your decisions. That is exactly what Josef Goebbels did.

My point is that it didn’t just happen. We live in a world where much of what we hear has been tested out on focus groups before we ever hear it. The opinion makers want to know how we will respond so they can adjust their messages, and ultimately lead us toward their way of thinking. There isn’t supposed to be pushback.

The Yellow Vest Uprising in France should not be taking place. The citizens of France were not supposed to have grumbled about a new tax on fossil fuels and taken to the streets. The tax was intended to discourage fossil fuel use and thus decrease greenhouse emissions. The problem is that French workers can’t afford to live in the cities where their jobs are, e.g. Paris. So they need gasoline to drive from home to work and back. French citizens are not acquiesing to this carbon tax as an affirmation of their global citizenship. There seem to be fewer and fewer people wanting to venture into the Brave New World dictated to them.

Journey Part III

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NSFW. A brief dialogue

Five

Naked. Paddled. Sodomized. By a man she knew for a little under twenty four hours. She felt the burn in her buttocks. She wondered where her dignity went, why she gave it away.

The Captain walked back in with a damp washcloth, a towel, a box of tissues and arnica gel. He put them aside, covered her with a blanket, then held her.

“I know you are feeling a lot of things, not just the heat from the paddling.”

“Is this where I open up after this profound, cathartic experience?”

“Only if you want to.”

“You paddled me like a ten year old brat.” She sniffled.

“Yes, I did.”

“You tell me I want and need this.”

“You do. And it’s not like you can get spankings like you can a pedicure. The spankings are the story within you. It’s as simple or as complex as that. And some stories have to be told.”

“So getting my butt warmed is my version of what, The Odyssey?”

“In a way. After all, it’s your journey; how you got here.”

” How about just giving me a tissue?”

Desire

A teaser. Where should I go with this?

Desire is a quirky funny thing, he thought. He had seen her every work day for what? A year. Without a second thought he passed her cubicle, until he noticed the picture of that guy was no longer on her desk,the one of the two of them at Cancun or Negril or some other Drink Served In A Pineapple With A Tiny Paper Umbrella Resort Place. His antennae perked up, more than those fictional antennae, frankly. It was her look that attracted him, but would she surrender to him, or he to her?

He felt completely awkward because he had always assumed she was unavailable. Now, he wondered if he had enough small talk left in him for flirtation, let alone seduction. So he pondered his new dilemma in between his rather near automatic attention to the annual audit of a paving contractor that occupied his professional time. He knew the business like he knew the ruts and divots of his boringly verdant backyard he dutifully mowed every weekend from April through October.

The following day he greeted her as he strode by her cubicle on the way to his office.

“Good morning, Ms. Higginbotham.” Better than ignoring her, thought he.

“Please call me Artie,” she replied. No need for too much formality, Mr Albright.”

“And you may call me Dwight.”

“Either your mother liked rhymes or your Father liked Eisenhower. Which is it?”

“Both, actually. I’m twice blessed with embarrassing parents.”

“Aren’t we all? That’s the only way they come, is it not?”

Where there’s banter, there’s hope, he reasoned silently. Perhaps she wants to play.

Give It Away For Lent

I grew up Presbyterian, Southern Presbyterian, in the Fifties and Sixties. The Catholics were the figurative “bad guys” in those days. Lent was a time that the Catholics, but nobody in their right mind, (Presbyterians) would observe.

So now, after fifty plus years, seems like everybody has a little skin in the Lenten game. As an Episcopalian, I noted the Lenten observance had some degree of rigor.

Now, as a Catholic, I am more than eager to deepen my relationship with God, God expressed in The Most Holy Trinity.

So giving something up is bandied about these days. No candy bars, coffee,alcohol, meat, tobacco, whatever. But simply giving something up, in itself, does very little to deepen that bond of love.

What is apparent to me is my attachment to stuff, also known as “material things”. Clothes, for example, or books, DVD’s, CD’s, furniture. Stuff takes up a lot of space. Somebody might make better use of my stuff than I have or would.

So it is time to give stuff away, and also not buy anymore. That’s Lent for me. Me and Detachment, really? Here goes.

Journey Part II

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NSFW. Porn. Kinky Porn. sadomasochistic violence. Spanking. This is fiction, y’all!

Three

Flor thought she laid draped over the leather sofa for an eternity, or at least an hour. It was actually 10 minutes. The Captain walked up to her,lifted her off the couch , turned her, draped her over his shoulder, and took her to bed. She stirred when her skin felt the cool sheets. She welcomed the warm down comforter and the silky duvet cover. Her naked body reveled in the tactile awakening. She felt leather, the cotton of The Captain’s shirt, and now this silky warmth. Luxury. The ring of her anus felt its brusque intruder, Flor noted it as well. And at this moment, Flor fell asleep.

She had no idea how long she slept. Greta entered the bedroom with a tray. Flor noted the espresso pot, the pitcher of hot steamed milk, the sugar bowl, and the large cup. The croissants, butter, jam promised something rich, and the fresh pineapple, mango, and strawberries were more than welcome.

“Shall I fix your coffee while you use the bathroom, Mistress Flor?”

“Yes please. Sweet please. And strong.” She entered the bathroom and was taken aback by the mirrored walls opposite the toilet. As she made water, she was struck by her vulnerability, her exposure, if only to herself. After she voided, she stepped over to the bidet, cleaned herself, and here too, she saw her reflection. A mirrored bath. Decadent. She noted the drapes that were hiding the mirrors when she “freshened up”last night.

“Incremental decadence,”she noted inwardly.

Flor noticed the breakfast items had been set on a table overlooking a garden, planted with autumn flowers and rose bushes bore their last few flowers of the season.

“May I ask where The Captain is?”

Of course. He is at the pool and the gym. Then he checks with his office.”

“When will he join me?”

“When he is ready, Mistress, you will be taken to him. Please enjoy your coffee before it’s cold.”

Flor noted the abrupt change of subject, and the ominous sound in the passive voice (will be taken…) The coffee was hot, sweet, delicious. The croissant was a buttery extravaganza. Just sitting nude, in the warm and sunny room was a luxury.

Flor, as instructed, had brought no clothing with her. Since last night’s evening attire was provided, she assumed there would be suitable clothing provided for the day’s activities.

“Greta, I’d like to get dressed now.”

“Mistress, I have no instructions to provide you clothing. Are you warm enough?”

It then dawned on Flor that a choice had been taken away from her. She was being kept in this house, naked, waiting for this man, this Captain, to join her in his own good time. Her gorge rose. She was being ordered, directed, controlled. It dawned on her that there is a term for those who possess no power of choice, slave.

Four.

“The Captain is ready to see you. Please follow me.” It wasn’t Greta who made this announcement, but a man, a stranger, who entered the room. Flor felt her vulnerability as embarrassment, covered her breasts with her arm. Her other hand covered her pubis.

“Please put your hands at your sides. Walking will be easier.”

He opened a door to the terrace. She followed him, down a little step, to a path of stone pavers that felt cold and hard and rough on her bare feet. Her nipples hardened and pointed out in the autumn chill. She was relieved the servant was not looking at her, but the man mowing the lawn, stopped the mower and stared, as did the woman, in the flannel shirt and jeans, planting bulbs. She put down her trowel, and looked straight into Flor’s eyes, as she approached her. She smiled, then whistled, then winked.

Eye candy! At my age! A little insulted, a lot flattered, and even more frightened, as her vulnerability became even more apparent.

Finally they reached his office, a stone cottage, with that Lake Country quality. She almost expected Wordsworth to be inside. But no. The Captain was.

He made general inquiries about her comfort, as courteous as always.

Flor responded with anger and disrespect.

The Captain simply said, ” I knew showing you your place would bring this out. You were looking for the thrill that sex with a rich stranger would offer and yet you were indifferent to what that cost to you might be. But cheer up. My price is only what you want, what you need to lose.

“Thank you, Dr Phil!” Her sarcasm came bubbling out and she instantly regretted the remark.

I’ve noted your rudeness, your insolence, your discourtesy at resenting my… hospitality. There is, of course, corrective action to address your lack of manners.

He pointed to the leather ottoman in front of the arm chair in the office sitting area.

“Bend over that. Ass up.”

Any reticence was preempted by the hand gripping her bicep, then pushing her down and over. He was behind her to her left. She heard a drawer opening, then closing. There was a pause, then the paddle hit her squarely on her raised ass.

“We won’t have any counting strokes theatrics, but you will keep your hands on the floor.”

The paddle struck her buttocks, then again, and again, as the tempo increased and the heat in her ass, rose. She lost her dignity as the tears began. Her imagined stoicism vanished with the sobbing that came deep within her.

The spanking, no, paddling ended. As it was last night, she was alone, this time with her crying, her tears, and the snot. And she felt that something had left her. Something she needed to lose.

Dinner. A Victory.

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You don’t have to be Wolfgang Puck or Julia Child to stick a roast in the oven and have it turn out well. But when it does, I feel like I have scored some huge victory, like I’ve won the World Series, the Stanley Cup, or the Ashes Urn for all you Brits and Aussies out there.

It was a simple lean, pork loin. I rubbed it with sage, smoked paprika, and placed it in the oven at 400° for 30 minutes per pound. I use a rack so it browns evenly on both sides.

I cooked some apples. Peeled 3 Granny Smith apples,sliced them, and cooked them over medium heat with 2 tablespoons turbinado sugar and a few shakes of cinnamon. They kind of just turn into applesauce, but they taste good.

What I am most proud of tonight are the asparagus. I cook them with a steamer insert in a sauce pan. I did not overcook them. They were still crisp and hot.

I consider that a victory.

Now I am drinking my coffee while it is still hot.

Life is good.

Insomnia And A Prayer 26 February 2019

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I am up again. Been up a since 2:00 AM. I have this irrational fear that I may be missing something, but what that may be I don’t know.

So I am watching travel videos, shot in the 1930’s, on YouTube. Good old YouTube.

I feel sleep wanting to creep back in. And tears of a great sadness I can’t begin to describe.

I mourn those who have passed, my mother, father, brother, ex-wife, for starters.

I grieve the evil possessing Holy Mother Church.

I fear the modern world has fallen and worshipped the transitory and worldly instead of the eternal and Divine.

I must do what I can to set things a right.

And I fear failure. What I should fear is not trying, of shrinking from the challenge, of running away..

God, help me.

Stones

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Putting my desire and lust on hold, I revert to caregiver. Not unusually nor infrequently do I make the transition. You see, my beloved suffers from kidney stones.

There are times, as in right now, when the situation indicates that it isn’t about what I want or even need. That is a good thing, all in all. I don’t want to exaggerate my selflessness or altruism. But her needs have taught me things about myself. and serve to put my needs in context.

Later this afternoon

J finally passed the stone. Usually they no bigger than a grain of sand. This stone was almost as large as a pebble. How it even passed through her urethra truly astonished me.