I tried to sleep, fell asleep for a couple of hours, then woke up. I could not fall back to sleep. I came back down here to see if I could get back to sleepy time state.
Remember I have to be up for Holy Hour at Three.
Here I go again.
07 Saturday Sep 2019
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I tried to sleep, fell asleep for a couple of hours, then woke up. I could not fall back to sleep. I came back down here to see if I could get back to sleepy time state.
Remember I have to be up for Holy Hour at Three.
Here I go again.
07 Saturday Sep 2019
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It has been hot. The AC has not been working optimally. The end of Summer has been quite robust. To cool down the other night, J wore a black camisole top with spaghetti straps. Quite sexy. I praised her to no end. It was a surprise. She hasn’t worn anything this overtly feminine in years.
Today she had her annual mammogram. She got the result by this afternoon. A negative. Everything is OK. To celebrate we went to Bone Fish Grill, where she had her favorite scallops and shrimp. I had fish and chips, in keeping with my Mancunian Wannabe sentiment. We are drawing closer, in a seemingly natural and effortless glide.
I have First Friday Nocturnal Adoration this morning at 4 AM. It seemed only fitting I had a chat with a woman after the AA meeting about things Catholic.
I have known TZ for several years. Attaining long-term sobriety has been elusive. This tenuous period, after a decade-plus of sobriety before her first of several relapses, has been her most successful of recent attempts.
I had not been to a meeting in several weeks. I had cookies to give away, so I went to this meeting, cookies in hand. There were cookies remaining after the meeting. I offered them to TZ and she took them.
She is handcrafting greeting cards and I bought one. It had a verse from Scripture, “For we see not with our eyes, but with Faith.” We got to talking. She had been raised Catholic, but has left The Church. I am a convert to Catholicism. She cited the lack of Biblical teaching in Catholic Schools. The Church had failed her in her spiritual formation, one of thousands that the Church has so failed. I told her my conversion was based on the great spiritual teachers of the Church, Teresa of Avila. Francis de Sales. Francis of Assisi, That moment of connecting after the meeting made my day.
After the meeting, I went swimming. I put in a mile. I came home, did a wash and waited for J.
I am tired. Today I got out of the house. I need to sleep. Adoration, you know.
05 Thursday Sep 2019
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Forget the worst Rogers and Hammerstein song ever written that contains that phrase.
This picture accidentally contains a few of my favorite things. 1). Flowers I cut from my own lame-ass climbing rose vine. 2) Using a Perrier bottle for a bud vase. I know. It’s so Eighties like Nancy Reagan’s couture fashions or Dynasty. 3). Local tomatoes. If this one is like its mate from yesterday, it will be delicious. 4). Imported Herbes de Provence that come in this cool stoneware crock.
This is a just a snapshot. I could crop it and make it all artsy, but that’s not me. This stuff is me.
05 Thursday Sep 2019
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As I write this homage, Australia is thrashing England in the fourth Ashes Test played at Old Trafford in Manchester.
Way back when Manchester United became a highly recognizable football team, I was more or less indifferent to Manchester, the city they represented. Then, thanks to the gift of YouTube, creators, like Martin of Martin Zero, are sharing their love of this remarkable city.
Manchester is a city of two rivers, the Medlock and the Irwell. There are canals dating back two hundred years. The factories that made Manchester lie idle, if not demolished out right. But the quarried stone remains, her story lives on in these stones and architecture.
I decided I would declare myself a spiritual Mancunian. I found this tee-shirt on Amazon. Now that I have a tee-shirt, there is nothing left for me to do, but renew my passport, apply for a visa, and buy a plane ticket.

05 Thursday Sep 2019
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Were I a true insomniac and cricket enthusiast, I would stay up for all hours to watch the Bangladesh vs Afghanistan test series taking place live somewhere in Bangladesh.
Alas, no. I shall pass. On the other hand it appears the house is cooling down after I turned the thermostat off for ten minutes. Sometimes, in order for these computer systems to reset they have to be turned off awhile,
Night, y’all,
04 Wednesday Sep 2019
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We are limping into Fall with an air conditioning system that is not quite working. We have maybe one more hot day to deal with before it cools down again. I can ride out maybe a few hours of discomfort. Today I let the cool morning air in. I took a nap by an open window. Sweet.
J wanted to go out to dinner. We had an early meal, more of a lunch really at Cheesecake Factory. I ordered a Cuban sandwich. I ate only half of it, with the green salad that came with it. Very nice. I prefer the Cuban sandwiches at Kuba Kuba or Kuba Kuba Dos, but a bad Cuban sandwich is hard to find.
We went home. I took another nap beside my open window. I awoke around Seven PM. Do I go swimming? At first blush, no. Then after dithering about for half an hour, decided a swim would be the right thing to do. So I went.
I got my 1750 meters in, faster than yesterday. Then I showered, shaved, dressed and came home. The triumph to which the title refers is that I swam, instead of sitting around. On my return, I fixed J’s lunch. She has a chance to work at Target tomorrow so she is taking advantage of it.
This afternoon, I was chatting with a friend who is familiar with the BDSM lifestyles and variants. She lives in Vermont and met J on holiday six years ago. I shared I thought J was a “little”. Upon her observation of J during our visit, she said she thought she observed some “little” behaviors. Now I am more certain of the opportunity and challenge presented to me and my role as a “Daddy”.
03 Tuesday Sep 2019
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Erotic Reverie. For The Mature. 18+ I would suggest.
Would she be ready, he wondered? It was, after all, Saturday, her day to prepare. There was hair to be styled, other hair in other places to be removed. Her clothes were her whim, but she knew which of her fancies would stir him to the quick eliciting his generosity.
“I’m in the mood for something leather, a skirt perhaps.”
Antoine, her designer who conspired to fulfill these whims, had found a red kidskin from an artisan in Italy and fashioned a most marvelous skirt that caressed the twin globes of her buttocks as if it were a coat of paint. To this masterpiece of suggestion, Antoine chose an exquisite black silk and fashioned a blouse that draped her breasts, suggesting their presence was within his grasp.
The Red and The Black. Leather and Silk. Flesh encased in luscious textures that fired not merely his lusts but hers as well. For that leather caressed her bare skin, and the tightness produced a sweaty stickiness. The silk, in turn, stroked her bare nipples to excited little points with every breath, welcoming his sucking and later the teasing pinches and then the maddening pulls.
Who is the Master of this Game, she who offers this fullness to match his concupescence, or he who rises to snap at her proffered bait?
He would have her body. She would have his. And the mutually beneficial arrangement paid for her flesh with his dollars. Never did they see their working arrangement as mutual exploitation. But mutual pleasure as attested to by their serotonin gluted synapses,
02 Monday Sep 2019
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This Labour Day I did my usual non holiday things, sleep, fix J’s lunch, clean a bit, go for a swim. I am loving the routine.
C, #2 son, is supposed to be by after his piano lesson with my sister. He is going to see if he wants some stuff of his I found when I was cleaning. I am excited about his visit.
It is a bit warm. We need to have the HVAC people look at the heat pump. But it isn’t miserable.
I swam today, loving every minute of it. I have lost six pounds (2.72kg) since I last weighed myself, all of it a result of working around here, cleaning the mess up.
Not much else.
01 Sunday Sep 2019
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1 September is a special day. In 1939, after a fabricated border incursion, the Wehrmacht of The Third Reich invaded Poland. The World has never been the same since that day eighty years ago. For your homework, read the W H Auden poem, September 1, 1939. He summarizes that time better than anyone else.
Rather than a post about World War II, I will move on to today. I went to Mass at 830 AM. I was awake then. I could make no promises for later. The Mass is about The True Presence of Our Lord. Father JDR made the point that Christ accepts us as we are, that we are made for eternity with God. We are neither as bad nor as good as we think ourselves to be. End of Homily, or at least my take on it.
After Mass I went to the newly opened Publix in a shopping center about midway between Church and home. The Publix people tore down an existing grocery store structure and built exactly what they wanted. It is a nice store. I bought the makings for ratatouille which I did not have on hand, egg plant, onion. green pepper, some nice canned tomatoes from Italy. I had mushrooms, garlic and zucchini at home.
They were very nice and helpful, as they always are. The young woman who helped take my groceries to my vehicle was one of several staff members who made me feel welcome. I told her this store is built on the site of an A & P,(remember them?) that operated here sixty years ago, near the house where we lived from 1962 to 1974. On balance, fond memories.
I prepped the vegetables and the ratatouille cooks as I write. I am awash with powerful sexual feelings. When I cook I feel creative and therefore sexual. I await J’s return from work, with her bronchitis, need to rest, and her repressed sexuality. But, I will be glad to see her. No matter the circumstances.
01 Sunday Sep 2019
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Dinner. Slow Cooker. Ratatouille!!!!!