If I knew why one minute I think the world is coming to an end and the next minute I realize life isn’t so bad after all, well, I guess you could call me enlightened. This is one of those days.
What was special about today is that I knew I needed to be around people. So I went to AA, just to see and be seen. I shared some thought on the topic of freedom. I quoted a line from Me and Bobby McGee, by Kris Kristofferson. “Freedom’s just another word for nothin’ left to lose.” (If you remember Janis Joplin had a hit with it.) so it is with not only our physical possessions but our emotional attachment to things.
We aren’t really free if we have to hold on to our status, our prestige, our fear of losing somebody’s “love”. (Never mind that true love can’t be lost.) But there I was, chillin’ with my drunk peeps. Not. Feeling. Lonely. The moral of the story: Get out the house, to AA, The Y, Daily Mass.
Speaking of The Y, I went right after the meeting. I swam 1800 meters and felt good. I saw my friends Pat, Steve, and Greg. The only exciting news was that Steve had somebody tear the door off his locker and steal his wallet.
Now I am home, waiting for J, reading blogs, getting caught up here.
This morning, as I was getting dressed, I just lay back in bed, beneath an open window and felt the morning breeze on my naked body. It felt incredible! Further exploring the realm of gratuitous sensuality, I went commando this morning, feeling the fabric of the shrink to fit 501’s against my, uh, personal bits. (Note to self, Do THAT more often).
That’s about it.