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Monthly Archives: February 2019

Waking. Sleeping. Waking.

08 Friday Feb 2019

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I was up later than usual last night. I wrote an erotic, sexually explicit story at the behest of one of this blog’s followers. Then I went upstairs, ostensibly to sleep, but my wife was watching TeeVee. I got her to play a Seinfeld DVD, which usually facilitates my dozing off. The episodes serve as bedtime stories for me. I know them almost by heart and the familiar voices relax me. But I don’t just doze off and awaken seven or eight hours later. I woke up around 6:30 AM, roughly four hours later, seemingly alert. Now consciousness makes her demands known. I am watching YouTube, drinking coffee (Colombian), eating fruit and cheese. The sleepiness is working it’s way back. And this half wakeful state is most compelling.

“To sleep, perchance to dream…”

This lethargy has me dreaming, sort of, but I’m still steering this ship of consciousness. So the dreams aren’t really dreams, just puny, willful fantasies. The real dreams are when the monsters, gremlins, and imps within us take the reins. And suddenly I’m re-living horrible jobs and dysfunctional marriages. Suddenly alternative endings take shape.

But the greatest dream is to imagine things being different. And it take wakefulness for that outcome to materialize.

Just How Dirty Is My Mind?

08 Friday Feb 2019

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NSFW Erotic Writing

Sometimes the opportunities just drop out of the sky. But word gets around. If there’s a consolation for being the lower income producer in a two income household, it’s the size of the divorce settlement when you get dumped. I did OK. Enough money from the trust and the condo I got in exchange for signing over the McMansion to her. I can work on buying and selling the Mid-Century Modern collectibles I have a passion for. Occasionally the cash flow is a little tight and I found I can clean houses to ease the pinch a tad.

Clients? No problems. There are a legion of working professional women who like the idea of a man who reminds them of their ex-husband scrubbing their toilets and polishing their door knockers. And I make sure that they notice that I put the work into my swimming. I don’t flaunt my absence of a middle age paunch and fat ass, but they get noticed when I wear the 501’s shrunk to fit my body.

Tuesday I got a call from Melissa, the tax lawyer with the three bedroom row house. The heart pine floors repurposed from an old barn were a pleasure to wax and buff. And the master bathroom had that two-headed walk-in shower, plus the bidet that always piqued my curiosity as I fancied a woman using it.

That particular day I was finishing up as Melissa came home. She had a tennis lesson that had cancelled, but could not bear the thought of returning to a couple of hours of files. She would come up with the billable hours later.

Her key turned in the lock as I was putting the mop, brushes and buckets away.

“Nice work,” she said. She got out her wallet with the cash. And then…

I could feel her looking at me. She smiled then said “May I ask you something?”

“Sure.”

“You take care of your body, like modern collectibles and clean houses from time to time. Are you gay?”

“Funny I was wondering if you were a butch lesbian, what with the pant suit and that short bob of a haircut.”

“Maybe we both have secrets. Go upstairs, take those jeans off, shower thoroughly and meet me in my office.”

I did as she said. Showered and clean, I walked into her office, with the towel around my waist. She was sitting at her desk, wearing that god awful pants suit, absent mindedly tapping her palm with a ruler.

“Well here’s where we both get our questions answered. Yes? No? Maybe? Who wants to play?”

Rising from her chair, she walked toward me and with a quick jerk of her hand, pulled the towel off. I was, at that time, flaccid.

“Hmm. The mystery continues.”

“I can offer some closure”.

I drew in to kiss her. With the gesture, as our lips met and tongues explored, I was getting harder and hotter. She began to caress me, and I set to work undressing her. The tailored linen shirt and lacy bra came off. I found the side zipper on her nicely tailored trousers. Just as I began to slide the zipper down, she smacked my hand.

“Now it’s time for my surprise.”

She unzipped with her back towards me. When she turned around I saw that she was, uh, what’s the word, packing. And suddenly I knew that no amount of money could compensate me for what was to happen.

Her kisses and caresses became more assertive. I felt her fingers pinch my nipples harder and harder. And then she slapped my ass.

“Get down boy and put that ass in the air!”

And I did. I felt the wool of the carpet on my knees and on my nipples and my cheek as her fingers, now gloved and lubed, probed my asshole. I felt her move them in and out. I raised my body and my palms felt the rug. She was breathing in my ear, her tongue probing my ear, as her finger thrust into my butt.

Then the finger came out and I felt the push of the silicone phallus. And her hand on my cock. She and I were finding a rhythm. And I wondered, would she cum? How would I know?

And then I didn’t care. I felt the jism surge from my balls, up my shaft, as I spasmed and splattered onto the Persian carpet.

I collapsed, satiated. Emotionally. Physically. I had been used. And I didn’t care.

Housework

08 Friday Feb 2019

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Just when I thought I should just chill all day, I got the idea that I could not put off cleaning the bathrooms and kitchen any longer. They are now clean. We have the washer and dryer in the bathroom. That means dryer dust. I am not happy with how the dryer is vented. Until we fix that, we will continue to be the world’s largest producer of dryer lint. I swear we could export it to a country with no dryer lint, so they would not feel deprived.

I also became skilled in soap scum removal with the Mr. Clean Magic Eraser. I was truly astonished at what came off.

We are clean of kitchen and bathroom. Dirty of mind. Still.

The Wheels On The Bus…

07 Thursday Feb 2019

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Fell off. From time to time, we all need to go into rest mode. This is one of those times for me. My weight loss progresses well. My swimming has been most satisfying. I have been one who, as my elementary school report card would say, “uses time wisely.”

We all know the problem with the prudent use of time. NO FUN!

I don’t think sleeping qualifies as fun. But sitting around, watching unrewarding shows on YouTube does. By unrewarding, I mean that I can’t make any money off the information obtained from the content. Examples would be Die Deutschen Wochenschau or Brazilian Plus Size Fashion Shows.

After watching about twenty minutes of German propaganda newsreels, it is patently obvious why the civilized world hated the Nazis and dedicated their national purposes to stopping them. Revulsion and disgust still come up almost 80 years after these films were made.

As to plus size Brazilian fashions, very attractive women model very attractive clothes and size doesn’t seem to matter. Guess I need to work on my Portuguese.

3:30 AM

06 Wednesday Feb 2019

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I woke up an hour ago with the need to urinate. Post-urinating, I checked a soup I was preparing in the slow cooker. The potatoes had cooked til they were soft. I then added a can of crushed tomatoes to a black bean and Andouille sausage soup I was preparing. I was still wide awake.

After a long swim, I sometimes am a little hyper-alert. Adrenalin levels must be elevated. So rather than try to sleep, I will ride this feeling a little longer.

Since I just made a pot of decaf, I feel obliged to stay up. Dumb reason, I know. I think I will learn to like iced coffee.

I will stay awake til Train #98 the Northbound Silver Meteor passes through Ashland. Then back to sleep, I shall go.

Tuesday Activities

06 Wednesday Feb 2019

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Activities:

  1. Fixed beef brisket in slow cooker.
  2. Swam 3400 meters (2+miles)
  3. Fixed black bean & corn salad with cilantro/lime dressing.
  4. Did nothing to be agitated unnecessarily.
  5. Watched Popeye cartoons.
  6. A good day

Stalingrad Movie

04 Monday Feb 2019

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It’s not everyday you can find a docudrama on YouTube about the battle of Stalingrad in Russian with subtitles in Serbian. At least it says Serbian but the writing is with the Latin alphabet, not Cyrillic. This was made in the 60’s or 70’s. It looks really cheap. The characters look as bored as I am.

Being Awake

04 Monday Feb 2019

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So I remained awake. I bought the rose. She was surprised and pleased. Her work day was not too demanding. She was tired. I am not surprised. She was too tired for the 5:00 PM Mass. She took a nap. I went swimming. I swam 2050 meters, same as yesterday.

I felt a bit guilty about swimming and skipping Mass. I watched a Holy Hour on EWTN when I arrived back home. Actually it was quite spiritually uplifting. I will go to Mass during the week.

I am NOT watching the Super Bowl. Zero (0) interest. I am just burned out on Corporate Big Budget Professional Sports. I am quite enthusiastic about people being physically active. We need to be.

I’m feeling tired. Could be bed time.

On Awakening

03 Sunday Feb 2019

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Here in Richmond, it is almost 1:20 PM . And, yes, I just woke up. Let’s be more accurate. I woke up at 3:00 AM, was up for a couple of hours, then back to bed. I was up at 8:00 AM was up for about an hour, then back to bed. Now it is afternoon. I shall push the envelope of wakefulness to the rest of the day.

I do need to meet J for brunch at Maggiano’s around 2:15. It is a nice Italian restaurant, as fake corporate-owned Italian restaurants go. Even I get tired of Frank Sinatra singing Gershwin, Cole Porter, Rogers & Hart in the background. That is better than the sports on the omnipresent TV monitors that infest so many restaurants these days.

So why have I been sleeping? I’m tired for one. Also, I suppose I didn’t really want to go to Mass today. This happens among the best of us. Or even the worst of us. I will admit this at my next Confession.

I like this feeling in my body, tired, muscles hurting, slightly euphoric. I only wish I had someone to share it with. I will do something special for J today. Buy her a single rose to give her at Maggiano’s . She has been at work since 6:30 AM. I would be lying if I said I expected nothing in return.

I want a lover. Not a roomate. Or a financial partner.

Saturday.

02 Saturday Feb 2019

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After the 3400 meter swim of Thursday, I rested yesterday. I got back in the pool today and swam 2050 meters, a mile and a quarter. The longer swim somehow catalyzed weight loss. I had about a two pound drop on Thursday, post swim, that is staying with me.

I had planned to attend the Feast of The Presentation Mass (Candlemas) tonight, but, heck, I’m tired, although it is a lovely Mass.

We’re wading through the Governor Northam public relations storm surge here in Virginia. He has lost almost all of his credibility, between appearing to endorse infanticide and having racist pictures surface from his past. The Governor of Virginia cannot run for re-election. The Senate seats are held by popular established Democrats. So his career is for all intents and purposes, over. The Democratic gubernatorial nomination for 2021 appears to be a showdown between the Lieutenant Governor, Justin Fairfax, a young African-American, and Attorney General Mark Herring, a two term Liberal stalwart. If Northam resigns, Fairfax moves to the Governorship, He would be limited in running for the office in his own, which opens the door for Herring. No showdown, unified party. The Virginia Republicans are currently a train wreck looking for a place to derail.

Gotta go. Hugs Loves.

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