I can take the Amtrak app on my smart phone and plot journeys to places I’ve never been to meet women I’ve never met. I can imagine what my new found ladies would be like. Do they like the prospect of meeting me at the railroad station, wondering which stranger I am as they leave the train?

Are they wondering why they are doing this, having an adventure with someone they’ve never met.? 

Sometimes I just feel lonely.  Sometimes the back pain is just annoying, not bad, bearable but unrelenting.  The platonic. sexless marriage that is ours cannot always be rationalized or explained away.

Yes I want some magic A little makeup, perfume, candles. 

Tell me I’m worthwhile. 

Stay in the house with me. Help with a meal.    

I had my Weight Watchers weigh-in today. I am keeping the weight off. Still Lifetime. The long spell of too much coffee and too little sleep caught up with me. I crashed this afternoon And had a good long nap. Mrs CorC? has been gone studying for her .medical billing and coding class. 

I was alone and lonely until I cleaned the kitchen while watching the Yankees rally to win Game Four of the American League Championship Series. It was baseball at its best. There is no better sport than baseball, well played.

Today was a day off from swimming. I get plenty of swimming done. 

I’ve been reading blogs and I am always filled with admiration for my blogging colleagues and how they fearlessly share their lives.

Meanwhile, on the trainspotting front, I just watched a fast freight on the second track overtake a passenger train just pulling out of the ststion. Quite a sight to see. This is one heck of a hobby.

OK. Feel much better.

We look at our desires within a context of sinister motives. The sex drive outside of marriage is viewed as lust. We want someone as a partner, as a lover outside of that marital bond and it is considered, by some people, at least, as lust.  Marriage is construed as the societal construct that keeps that lust in check and puts it to the good use of perpetuating the society and the culture. OK.

 Lust isn’t about just sexual gratification. Lust is the soul seeking to thwart loneliness.  At a very basic level, the soul only knows that it is lonely, just as a hungry baby cries because all she or he knows is that she or he is hungry,

I spent the day lonely as Mrs CorC? worked. When we finally were reunited, we were groove–ing on each others presence. The one-dimensional aspect of our marriage thwarted sexual expression.. 

Still her being home fills a void at least,

If you do nothing over the next day but listen to this, it will be time well spent.  Pure Genius.

It isn’t even the actual Columbus Day yet (12 October) and I just heard the holiday perennial most of us know as Jingle Bells on the Tee-Vee. 

When will this madness end? Uhh, 2 January, most likely,

Why am I sitting in my chair watching the selections from Ukrainian Fashion Week on FF CHANNEL via YouTube?

 Haute Couture = Ukraine. 

Move over Paris. Kiev has arrived!