Got up. I slept pretty much OK. I told J I would fix a frittata for a brunch this afternoon. She works til noon, maybe. They sometimes give her more hours on Sunday, usually because somebody doesn’t show up.

I’m wearing my new flannel shirt and black long sleeve tee-shirt I ordered from Land’s End. A picture will follow. My Dad had a shirt in a similar tartan to this one, only it was wool. His birthday is Wednesday. He would have been 99, more about Dad later.

I’m reading Best Lesbian Erotica Of The Year, Volume Four. Women write better erotica than men. I don’t know why. I find the characters more empathic.

I am going to sleep some more, I think.

Later.

It is a rainy Saturday morning. I just finished a warm croissant with fig preserves that I enjoyed with my coffee. I’m trainspotting now. #88 Northbound just left Ashland, headed to New York.

I think I could pay for my trip to New York in March by bringing two cartons of cigarettes and selling them on the “grey market”. But I won’t, because I don’t know anybody who could access said “grey market”. Oh well.

I’m thinking this question this morning. What do we risk for love?

Being in love with someone should take us out of our “comfort zones”. Huh? What is that? It is a term we use that we think other people understand, but, I suspect, don’t. Being outside such a zone suggests discomfort, sometimes physical,but other times that our sense of social or relational conformity is stressed. Think meeting your future in-laws for the first time, or asking that hottie if they would like to go out.

Being in love is about being uncomfortable. Eventually the edge of discomfort wears down. That usually means we are taking that erstwhile hottie for granted.

This is too much time ruminating, even for me, on this lazy Saturday. More. Maybe later.

After dinner and cleaning the kitchen I went swimming. Right now my body aches, but I am grooving on the silence in my flannel jammies and warm socks.

I’m kind of tired. But I need to find my optimal sleeping position.

Later

Just food that is. I had some leftover roast beef. I sauteed onions, garlic, celery, carrots and mushrooms, added the roast beef and made a gravy with a roux and a can of beef stock. Serving over egg noodles. Was really easy. Just lots of slicing and chopping.

Would a BJ be an appropriate gesture of appreciation, assuming the meal is sufficiently satisfying?

I went to bed at 11:00PM, slept til 1:00AM. I dressed, came downstairs, washed and sliced strawberries, washed blueberries (from Chile) washed and pitted cherries (Chile again) for her snack at her break. She only has a four hour shift; a full lunch isn’t necessary.

I went swimming yesterday. It feels more like a regular day. I’m experiencing the general a soreness present after I swim along with the lower back and hip pain. I have been using a cane some, mostly to take weight off the bad leg. None of the discomfort feels as bad after I swim.

So I am blogging. I feel the need to sleep some more. Back to bed.

Here I am awake, watching my Ukrainian metal detecting guys survey a newly plowed field. They find the usual stuff, coins, buttons, spent cartridges, religious medals, and cutlery. Some of their funds are nearly one thousand years old. Some were left by Die Deutsche Wehrmacht almost 80 years ago. We can only imagine the horror visited upon this earth not all that long ago, as the Germans sought this land for Lebensraum, living space.

The dirt of Ukraine is the famous “Black Earth”, the source of its fame as a prized agricultural region. Only about thirty years ago, under Communism, the agricultural production model was the collective farm. When the collective farms disappeared, the jobs in the rural economy went away also. Villages were depopulated and there are many abandoned houses. Eerie.

I made some decaf. I will sit and drink some of it as I watch the lay faithful, the monks, and the clerics do their Christmas festival. Now the people are singing Silent Night in Ukrainian Russian. This comes from monastery at Sviatogorsk Lavra in the Don Bass region. The people sing over there. Truly moving.

The peoples of Russia and Ukraine had their “revolution” over a century ago and found it wanting. They embrace their Orthodox faith and its customs and traditions because they experienced the spiritual desert of secular atheist Marxism. A lot of Westerners need to see how fervent their rejection of secular agnostic materialist values is, Pope Francis, for starters.

J had this experience of sadness yesterday that I managed to feel also. We need to talk. Again. That’s the thing about relationships. The partners need to talk more than once. Who knew?

Time for me to get really intrusive. Maybe her health isn’t good. Work exhausts her. I don’t know any more. It’s hard living with someone whose principal activities are work and watching cable and broadcast TV.

OK, After that teaser, I thought I would acknowledge I am on Fetlife

My Nom de Plume is SenorWences. If you want to connect message me there.

If you remember the Spanish ventriloquist who regularly appeared on The Ed Sullivan Show my pseudonym is an homage to him.

So there.

I just responded back and forth on a variety of topics around TV, the 60’s and TV commercials with a blogging friend. And my gosh,the intimacy in sharing our experiences was powerful. It was/is erotic. Sex is an extension of conversation, much of the time. Intimacy is about being heard, in my opinion.