When I was a lad, those many years ago. I had a “pen pal”. His name was Werner and he lived in Mannheim, then in the Bundes Republik Deutschland, or West Germany. Mannheim is on the Rhine. I don’t know much else about the place.
I have no idea what happened to him, but I get the excitement when my favorite bloggers post a blog,or leave a comment on my blog. Marvelous excitement. I feel like I’m understood.
Sometimes when one of my posts exposes what I perceive as a vulnerability, like a sexual memory and it is “liked” or commented on, I feel particularly validated. The awful truth is I don’t feel loved. I know cognitively, I am. I have a good marriage, especially compared to my earlier nightmares, I mean marriages. I’ve posted this before. I’m just feeling that invalidation again.
Dispatches From Dystopia 
I love the way you write. I have a mental picture of you based only off of your words here. I wonder how accurate it is? The anonymity of blogging makes it so easy to be fully open and honest. It is validating when someone reads our most intimate thoughts and lets you know they can relate to the way we think or feel.
That is so true and very well put by you. Thank you. I try very hard when I write.
You are such a good man, in every marker I know. A caring husband and father who clearly adores his sons. I often wonder if your wife tries to reach you or even knows that you feel lonesome and unloved. I’m betting she doesn’t know or doesn’t know how to reach out. I wonder what made her fall in love with you to begin with and if you can wake her up again
David, I always look forward to reading your posts and getting glimpses into your life and the world you live in. You’re a fascinating and kind man. I fancy myself lucky to have the opportunity to know you on some level. 🙂
I had pen pals all over the world for many years, too. The feeling of comments and likes does translate to what it was like finding a letter in the mailbox.
Thanks. This means a lot today because I’m climbing out of a pit of exhaustion. I’ve rested today. I’ve heard from my WP friends. I feel much rejuvenated.
That’s what friends do. 🙂 We hold each other up on those days when we need it. Friendship, as you well know, is more than just laughter and happy days. Glad to hear you’re rejuvinated. 😉
What’s next on your Sunday agenda?
Shower. Gonna poach salmon, slice fresh tomatoes for dinner. I have been slicing peaches, strawberries, and bananas for J’s fruit salad that goes in her lunch. I sliced a couple of mangoes for me. J doesn’t fancy mangoes.
Salmon and tomatoes for supper sounds wonderful. S doesn’t like salmon or fresh tomatoes so it’s been forever since I’ve had such a lovely summer supper. I’m with J on the mangoes. 🙂 Enjoy them, though… more for YOU!!! *giggles*
Quiet here. S left for work not long ago and i slept really late. He kept me up until after 3am chatting and playing MadLibs. Long Sunday by myself.
I was by myself. Then she came home and slept while I fixed dinner. We ate. She went back upstairs. I’m going up in a few.