So I went to bed at 7:00 PM (1900 Hrs). And I slept a solid five hours. Then lay in bed another hour. Finally I climbed out of the rack, dressed, and came downstairs to fix J’s lunch, a reprise of yesterday’s lunch.
Now I’m watching a WW Two newsreel/training film. It is something I have never seen before.They would show the films to show to soldiers in training camps.
I’m thinking about going back to bed. I was watching some sexually explicit videos, lesbians making love. They look like people, not silicone androids. It’s the faces I find most interesting; the faces show the emotion, the feeling. The bodies are interesting when they are real, imperfect. I have been watching pornography, reading pornography for over fifty plus years. I find it simultaneously appealing and appalling. It is a metaphor for my loneliness. There are encounters with true beauty, when the couples “connect”. When I watch, it’s the humans I see. Maybe I’m a creep. Oh well.
Almost Three now. I will have another cup of hot tea before I go back to bed. If it is too cold, it will be the makings for the day’s iced tea.
The day seems better than yesterday already.