- My children are adults
- My wife either is in bed reading, sleeping, watching television, or she is at work.
- I am devastatingly, excruciatingly lonely.
- Holidays drive the sense of loneliness in deeper.
- I gave up sharing how I feel and what I want long ago.
- If you have a great relationship with your partner, never cease to let them know that.
- I believe I have no ability to have a truly intimate relationship.
Situation Report
22 Monday Apr 2019
Posted in Uncategorized
Dispatches From Dystopia 
Why have you given up? Don’t be silly.
You have tons to offer the world. Don’t you? Smart man that has lived so much life. There are probably dozens of things you’d find enjoyment doing. Come on now. I completely get being devastatingly lonely. I can feel that way in a crowd of people.
Let’s get creative. Let’s brainstorm. Gotta be some things to add value to your day and meaning to your life. No? I could rattle of a plethora of ideas but I don’t know what your physically capable of doing with your health issues. You tell me.
Big hug. I’m here sending you loving thoughts. You got this. Don’t give up hope.
Feel better already. The pinched nerve is affecting my attitude. It hasn’t “un-pinched” yet. I will swim tonight. I will get back to being my creative self. Thanks Coach.
I can do a lot. I’m going to get my film 35mm SLR camera up and running again. I will declutter following that decluttering guru everybody is talking about.
I will own my sexual nature fully. ( Financially risky, at my age, because I could lose my marriage)
Oh. I am going to re-learn the languages I used to know, in addition to English, German and Russian. Adapting a computer to a Cyrillic alphabet keyboard might be a challenge.
Well. I would never advocate for anything that would destroy a marriage that isn’t toxic. Is there no way she can give you more space to find your “sexual nature”? I mean everyone needs sexuality. It’s a basic need.