I had a weird dream, involving the government, assassinations, movement, as in escape. It seemed to take up an enormous amount of time, but it did not.
I was sleeping in the same bed with J. She was off last night. Nice to have her with me.
What she does is sleep. I’ve taken to sitting on the porch. We even bought new furniture, a wicker rocker and table so I can sit and rock in style. Sitting on the porch enables me to meet my neighbours, like Toby the rescue dog and his owner, Rebecca.
Today is a good day, cool enough still to wear my flannel shirt and wool socks. Summer will be here soon enough. I’m burning a stick of cedarwood incense. J is allergic to incense so I enjoy it outside.
I have fantasies about having conversations with people and making new friends. Friendships that last, where we share the beauty and joy of living. This is no small feat. We are hard wired for isolation. I have to tell myself to sit outside.
My wife still sleeps.

Nice rocker. i have been thinking of getting one. J must need her rest. Hope you both have/had a great weekend
Oh yes. Rest is the operative word
That looks comfy. When you say “we are hard wired for isolation”? Who do you mean and why?
I’m glad you raised these questions. Anecdotally, I have family and friends who live alone or who describe themselves as extremely introverted. I looked at my own behaviour and noted that sitting alone, watching trains on YouTube occupied a lot of my time. The pandemic reinforced that isolation.
I told my wife last night that it was hard for me to open up and share with her, that my fear of being judged as hyper-sexed or eccentric by her hardens the shell “protecting” me. My fear of rejection causes me to isolate.
Oh. That makes sense. I understand that. I’m sorry. But I’m glad you’re taking care of yourself. I hope you meet many more nice neighbors and doggies.
Me too. Move here and Be my neighbour. We can play Scrabble on my porch.
That sounds lovely. But if I have to move I’m going to a beach. Lol
Sorry no beach. House next to community pool.
Your porch looks nice. 🙂
Thank you.
Thanks.
fear of rejection is a strong fear that many have, if love is there then understanding should be as well. It was my fear of rejection at an early stage in lfe that has kept me in the closet as a bisexual crossdresser. Overcoming fear of rejection is hard it relies on inner strength to be one self and accept oneself with or wit out flaws. Be well
Thanks
I’m by nature an introvert. I have to force myself to socialize, but knowing we all need people, I do. Once I’m with people, I usually enjoy myself, but it’s hard to take that first step and just do it. I’m retired now, but while working, had two very good friends there. One retired before me, one after. I tried to keep the friendships going, but was not met halfway. I tried and tried, but eventually gave up on that. They must be even bigger introverts than I am.
So many folks like that.