I finished my day as I have for several months now, by praying The Rosary. Noncatholics and nonbelievers will wonder why I do this.
You may as well ask why I brush my teeth every day, or eat fruits and vegetables, or exercise. The answer is the same, to stay healthy. It keeps the vortex of negativity and nonsense in check, mostly.
I prayed it tonight with a friend in another city. We watched the Rosary prayed from Lourdes, site of the Marian Apparition, occurring in 1858, at the now famous grotto.
Christian, (Catholic) spiritual growth isn’t entirely about feeling. There is lots of thought involved, contemplating the Mysteries of Gof’s Love.
Growing up Protestant, I had John 3:16 committed to memory by about age 8.
For God so loved the world, that he gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life
Faith, choosing Christ, is not like winning the lottery, or a guarantee of success in this life. You could very well end up dead, as the faithful of Nigeria, Iraq, and even France, among numerous countries, have learned in our time.
My problems have not been solved. But explaining to a nonbeliever that relationship with God, (in all three Persons of the Most Holy Trinity), is not like having an invisible friend (or friends). This is where going beyond feelings enters in. Faith is about contemplation and actions.
I am tired. Bedtime.