This was a morning, that turned into a day, where my enthusiasm wasn’t quite where it needed to be.
Things are out of joint. I’m like AMTRAK. My “trains”, if you will, are running late. My trains, to explain the metaphor, are the activities I use to take me through the day. Swimming, meal preparation, writing, reading. Other “trains” on the line take me off schedule, for example, a half-hearted search for video pornography on the internet. I think I will find something gratifying, never do. I just want to find lovers perform who actually love each other.
Never mind. Now I am writing, getting my thoughts out.
Thought 1). I can’t transform my home in one day.
Thought 2). I have goals to achieve. I want to write the novel that is in me.
Better now.
Dispatches From Dystopia 
You know…..some days we have more energy than we need and some days it’s hard to find any pace at all. Let yourself be. Sometimes your body needs to slow down to heal itself. Sometimes the emotions need to process and that slows you down. Don’t question it. You’re allowed. Be compassionate with yourself.
And as far as love making porn….yeah….never seen it, except in movies and even then it’s only a few minutes and complete fiction. Lol
If you ever find any good ones PLEASE let me know. I do so love porn. I’ve been thinking as soon as I get a new boyfriend I want to go to the sex club and make love in front of everyone. Who knows if I will ever get up the nerve but it’s a desire.
Funny there is one 8 min. Video of a lesbian couple. You can sense they really are a couple in real life and they are doing it with some real passion.
Hmmmmmmmmm. I’ve never watched lesbian porn. Send me the link please if possible
It is real hit or miss finding this clip when I search.
Lol. No worries. If you ever find any good porn forward to me. I’m always interested. 😉
I do hope you get your groove back soon. Big hug! Make yourself a nice beverage and enjoy the Spring day.
Did SOME yard work. Dug out some mimosa saplings
Sounds more productive than my day. Lol
Well sometimes nonproductive helps in the long run. I was sick of looking at how the front looked.
I hear you. I’m working on getting my house organized and Marie Kondo’d. Purging all junk to surround myself on my with things I love and support
A more serene environment. Takes time.
Oh yeah. A little at a time.
👍🏽🙂