I hope I don’t have some sort of sexual dysfunction. I remain attracted to women and my physical responses are still present. There is something going on however. I no longer delight in tales and anecdotes of sexual escapades.
I have looked at my sex life and my interest in sexual matters. Revulsion is now the operative word. Not guilt over what I have done. Truth is, what I’ve wanted is love. Human sexual activity may or may not be about love. And in 2017 America it ain’t!
I see nothing loving in adultery, even when you slap the word polyamory on it. I see nothing loving in promiscuity, even when that is rationalized away. I am repulsed at fetishising sexual chastity, when chastity is debased to a super-thrill. Brutality is still brutality, even when it is “safe, sane, and consensual”.
Human sexuality is the playground of the selfish and self-serving and has been for a long time. The rules of the Judeo-Christian marriage, chiefly monogamous, lifelong unions between a man and woman make more sense than the values of the “hook-up” culture. Among those dubious values are divorce, cohabitation outside of marriage, and artificial contraception.
I’m sure many of you are shocked by these statements. Or annoyed. I just want off the Sexual Fantasy Island. Because I see the misery out there living the Free Love Lie.