Early this morning, 2 AM, I was up, cleaning the kitchen. I puttered around a bit, getting ready for Adoration of The Blessed Sacrament between, 4 and 5 AM. My time with Our Lord has become very special and important to me. I have had the rather startling experience of Our Lord “speaking” to me, not some hallucination, but through an insight I had not had beforehand.
This morning I read Father Reginald Garrigou-Lagrange’s book The Three Conversions In The Spiritual Life, (Tan Books, Charlotte, 1977) while spending my time before The Sacrament.
Father Garrigou-Lagrange raises the question “Is man able, without some help from on high, (his italics), to get beyond himself, and truly and efficaciously to love Truth and Goodness more than he loves himself?” (Page 7). A challenge, most certainly. Somehow, at age 66, the Interior Life for me has become the Last Frontier. I shall read on. But the emptiness of our secular and materialist culture becomes increasingly apparent to me. More stuff won’t make me any happier. And even that end called “Happiness” seems the most vain of aspirations.
The day grinds on. I do some serious catch-up sleeping, have breakfast with friends, then sleep some more, go swimming, have dinner and here I am.
We have lost our pursuit of the Beautiful and the True. We use Art to derive solely emotional responses, and ascribe to that emotional response, Truth. Is Truth a mere feeling?
“Beauty is Truth, Truth Beauty. That is all you know on Earth and all you need to know.” Keats, Ode To A Grecian Urn
I am tiring, making less and less sense, and feel frustrated pecking out the letters on my Smartphone. More later.