- God won’t forgive me for being happy
- I have to stay married to Mrs CorC? til one of us dies.
- Another relationship will make me happy.
- If I just buy what they sell on the commercials they show during the football games, I will be happy. Beer, a Lincoln, Pepsi, Papa John’s Pizza, Cialis.
- Maybe if I bought Mrs CorC? that diamond, we would have sex.
I told you they were crazy thoughts. Are you glad they’re not in your head?
Dispatches From Dystopia 
lol I am kind of glad those aren’t my thoughts. But I appreciate you sharing them.
I’m glad I could simply express them.
I know for a fact that God loves you and wants you to be happy. The voice telling you he doesn’t is most definitely NOT God. That is your legacy voice, the sins of the fathers/mothers, trying to pull you back into the prison of your false beliefs. I know. I hear those nasty f***ers all the time.
God isn’t about toeing the rules hardline. God is about love, growth, connecting with others in love, and faith. The voices can go jump in the lake.
I used to try and fill that big empty space in me with shopping/stuff. It never works and only makes you broke and hate yourself after the binge. and crazy? Crazy is relative.
Thanks Monkey. I need to remember this.