6:36. AM . I’m sitting here, showered wearing clean clothes , watching a video on Brazilian waxing. The presenter is speaking Dutch. It is YouTube in all its eclectic splendor.

I need more sleep, I also want to cry. Loneliness grips me.. I’m think of things I have to do, like throwing crap out.

I would like to cook more but my wife will only sit at the table with me under extreme conditions. Her world is the television, the bed and a book. And she sleeps about twelve hours a day.

My marriage is an empty vessel.